well.. bye. it's been horrible with sprinkles of good and emotional trauma.

up for anything ive done. this might sound weird, but, i really hope that once i log out, you guys start to hate me. i really dont want you to be sad, especially over a toxic, ignorant, untalented **** like me. im getting ahead of myself, and ive stayed too long. my final words? just because you can't imagine someone feeling a certain way doesn't mean it's not possible. you never know, i could have a noose around my neck right now because of all this but half of you wouldn't believe me.

i changed my password to gibberish and am about to log out. go ahead, say whatever you want about me, tell me to kill myself and spew my guts out on the highway. trust me, ill see it, but i cant reply. whatever fake little personas you had on before, go ahead and get rid of it and put me down like the stupid little **** i am, cause i deserve it all and more. spad, mason, if you're reading this, you're the only two people on this hellbound website i car about anymore. you're both godsends, honestly, and you don't deserve half of the shit you guys get from anybody. when i inevitably die, ill make sure to watch over you guys, okay? you dummies mean a lot to me and i really hope you guys can detatch from here and find better places with better people. and im sorry i was never good enough. you guys are some of the greatest people i know, but i really dont deserve to know you. im toxic, and, that's not going to change anytime soon, if at all. i can acknowledge i have some okay parts but its not enough to make u

more invalidating my emotions!! just like old sg drama you can't even believe me when i say i want to kill myself because of you. i couldn't even ****ing remember staar mentioned it but hey guess who i dont blame? staar, because unlike you she had the balls to apologize instead of throwing away my emotions. and oh, how thoughtful of you to assume its my home life.

bro you and spades are the only people i care about anymore on here honestly i,, fucgk man even seeing that you commented is making me cry ily platonic 💘💗💘💘💘💓💘💘💖💖💖💓💗💗💓💖💓💘💘💓💗💖💓💖💘💓💖💖💓💖💗💖💖💗