this is more of a personal vent kinda rant

there was tthis one time my mother was hitting me in the bathroom I slipped and held on to the towel rack for support and it fell on my leg and left welts and it was bleeding pretty bad I couldn't walk AT ALL so I dragged myself to my room he just so happened to be there we yelled back and forth through my window beffore I was caught and slapped for speaking without permission he saw he knocked on the door and asked if we could hang out (it was preetyyytyt normal seeing as we lived in a nneighbor hood where all of us kids played with each other) and my mother said yes I slid down the stairs and tried hoping through the door on one leg he saw I couldn't so he waited for me all patient until I got there and he made sure we wouldn't go far so we sat on my porch and watched rick and morty and sonic moives together 1/2

I got into an accident and the vehicle flipped on top of my legs (it was about 600 pounds I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I CAN STILL WALK) when I got home on crutches you were so worried I couldn't walk on my left leg because I shot into the air from being flipped out and landed on my leg rolled over and the rider landed on me. but I still hung out outside but the little kids in the neighbor hood stole my crutches and ran off so he carried me and it was terrifying because he is ABSOULUTLY TALL like 6'5" and we watched anime in the garage arcade and waited for the kids to bring them back. we literally couldn't breath at one of the clips of a girl eating a grasshopper off a tree. and then I I got scared and he tickled me like crazy so yeah biggest memories from me falling so head over heels for this boy LIKE THE TIME HE PUT HIS HAND ON MY THIGH DURING A SCHOOL PLAY AND WHEN I FELL ASLEEP ON HIS ARM DURING AN ASSEMBLY AND WHEN HE THOUGHT I WAS FULLY ASLEEP HE BRUSHED THE HAIR FROM MY FACE OR THE TIME WHEN I SAT ON

HIS LAP AND WATCHED HIM PLAY VIDEO GAMES OR WHEN HE SHOWED ME HIS CAT OR WHEN HE HELD MY HAND BECAUSE I WAS COLD OR WHEN RAN YOUR FINGERS THROUGH MY HAIR OR WHEN IN LIBRARY HE'D HUG ME FROM BEHIND BECAUSE EVERYTIME I'D GET FRUSTRATED WITH NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND THE CALL NUMBERS OR WHENEVER WE'D SEE EACHOTHER IN THE HALLS HE'D WOULD RUSH OVER AND HUG ME OR WHEN I WAS SAD IN FRONT OF HIM ONCE HE PICKED ME UP, WHILE HUGGING ME AND SPUN ME AROUND OR WHEN HE CAUGHT MY PHONE OR WHEN HE'D WALK ME HOME FROM SCHOOL EVERYDAY OR WHEN HE CONFESSED AND TOLD ME HE HAD TO LIE ABOUT SOMETHING AND PANICKED AND SAID I WAS THE ONE WHO DID SOMETHING BAD OR WHEN WE LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY BECAUSE I FLEW OVER THE HANDLE BARS OF A BIKE OR WHEN YOU HELPED PATCH E UP AFTER A ROUGH FALL AND WHEN WE HIJACKED SOME KIDS SLIP AND SLIDE TOGETHER AND WHENEVER I WAS READING YOU'D SNEAK UP AND SCARE ME OR TICKLE ME IN MY SIDES UNTIL I DROPPED THE BOOK AND HUGGED YOU OR WHEN YOU SHARED YOUR GUMMI WORMS WITH JUST ME NO ONE ELSE

OR WHEN ON MY LAST DAY THE DAY BEFORE I MOVED YOU CHASED ME DOWN LAST MINUTE AND HHUGGED ME AND TOLD ME WE'D KEEP IN TOUCH It's been three years I miss my friend my soulmate and bestfriend I never got to tell you how I felt

if I said you I meant the boy Im talking about

he always smelt of caramel and leather my sugarcane prince

now Im with someone that Im probably going to marry but I had a dream about him I miss him so so so much I wish we could run away together he always understood no He never left without warning he was someone I could trust even when he ****ed up

He never treated me like some kind of **** DOLL