Where should start, uh, the past few days my stomach has been feeling weird, I eat so much but it still feels empty, but when I dont eat it starts to hurt??

Anddd, I feel like "certain ppl" kinda don't want me here, maybe because they know my old account, also @poolio, you're definently not gonna see this but I might as well try. Im sorry I said those awful things to you about the advertising, it was hurtful and unnecessary to say all of those rude things to you and I'm sorry.

A few ppl probably have me blocked on here but I understand, I wouldn't wanna interact with myself either. I wish I could back and all of the awful things I did, imo, I dont I really deserve the friends that I have on here. I'm too terrible of a person on this site.

School starts back soon and I'm kinda panicking, I wont have any friends there because they've probably moved and im always too scared to make new friends, talking to ppl irl or on the internet just seems scarier the more I grow up so that don't really help.

If I was given a chance to go back in time and fix my mistakes, I would gladly take that offer. I've made too many and yet I'm still here, I know everyone says "god doesnt make mistakes" but uhhh, kinda feeling like that's a lie now. ://

I kinda dont like this account either, its mainly just shitposts and vents and I'm too lazy to clean my account, what do people see in me that I don't see?? Theres so many other amazing ppl on here but they follow me?? I dont, I dont get it.

I wanna scream at someone or something but I dont wanna seem crazy hhhh

I cant stand my family, especially my cousins, they make me so disgusted, I cant believe they're even my family. They're so...touchy, and I hate visting them, I tell my mom but she doesn't even wanna listen have the time. They got caught smoking and put the blame on ME!?!? My mom knows i would never touch a cigarette but she believed them anyway. ****ing *****.

U guys dont have to just read, feel free to comment, I wont mind. :)