Of course dude. Hope you’re doing better 💙 take your time!

My discord is ‘ euphoric8510 ‘ if you need it. Please don’t hesitate to contact me if needed. Again, I can’t promise an immediate response, but I will respond eventually and I want to help.

Allow yourself to feel what you’re feeling, but remember that you will be okay. It is going to be okay. You can do it. You are loved and you can make it. You can have a good life, one you are proud of. You can do it.

You are cared about, whether you believe it or not. I know others may have more negative memories but I have incredibly fond ones of interactions I had with you in the past which I still think of from time to time. You are a wonderful person when given the time, space, attention, affection, and ability to be the most positive extent of yourself. Currently, you are not being given those things, and are “relapsing” on negative behavior. Your environment has a lot to do with what’s going on, and I’m proud of you for trying to change it. Getting out of the house will do a lot of good if you can manage it. Even if you can’t find a job, simply trying your best to even get out of bed will be progress. Try to go on a walk. Find some flowers, watch insects. Allow yourself to remember the good you possess and the person you can be. It may not feel like it will get better, but things like this are never permanent. They can be long, but eventually you will always get out of it.

Call a hotline. I want to offer myself as a resource but I know I will not be able to help as much as you need as I cannot entirely help myself right now and I am not a reliable person (busy schedule which frequently fluctuates and I am not vocal/communicative as much as I should be online) to have you put your trust in. But I do want to help, genuinely. Please call a hotline. Possibly a non-emergency or just a “generic” ‘crisis’ hotline. Say you just need someone to listen and be there. Talk. Or, you can have my discord, as I’d love to be able to help where I can, though I cannot guarantee any sort of “solid/structured” replies from me due to my own mental state and the time I have taken up by other things in my non-online life. I truly hope you get better and find peace without doing any sort of harm to yourself.