it shouldn't bother me so much but my sister was talking about this argument she was having with this girl on tiktok and about how she told this stranger that she wasn't the asshole and that the other girl was instead because she cuts herself and that she alone is ruining her body on her own reminds me a lot of when she joked about my failed suicide attempts to our dad

yesterday we got yelled at (me and my little sister, same sister btw.. shes 13.) because she called me a***** for not moving while she was sweeping the hallway cause I was knocking on my grandma's door to give her something. I told my grandma about it and she got mad but then my sister mentioned how i had called her one before too. well sucks to say I couldn't mention how she has called me the r slur or many other off putting names. I wanted so badly to mention how she mentioned my suicide attempts but whatever just recently she called me a suicidal freak ok, just wait kid. just wait til I'm 6 feet under or just wait until I leave you to be on your own when we spend our highschool year together

she said this around my dad my dad doesnt need to know I love him and all but cmon. he's been gone so long some things he just doesn't need to know about. I don't feel loved by my sisters, for their constant nagging and shitty words and jokes of my past actions if I commit suicide who willl care

I'm tired