ughh

8 comments
Schnappie[OP]
26.01.2025 19:51
Linkit is literally like a switch . my head just explodes like. right then and there. i woke up like.. like. wow yesterday was so good and today can be good too! and then i dm him and all thr stuff is happenjng and i have to mute and close the dm and put my phone down to cry and think about how i cant bear to live anymore and im never going to feel better
Schnappie[OP]
26.01.2025 19:52
Linki can’t handle him being upset. i actually cant handle it. i feel like my head is buzzing and im faint and i feel sick and i need him to get the **** away from me before he hurts me and all i want is to feel Better
Schnappie[OP]
26.01.2025 20:04
Linkim so scared all the time
ok wait ill just make this my vent post. i cant believe its been almost 6 months . since like. the worst thing ive ever been through . and then i’ll see comments or screenshots of me before it happened and it gives such a weird feeling . i cant imagine being that amount of comfortable anymore! theres a permanent fear i have Now . im more stable Now ,
definitely! but man its crazy . all those months are such a blur. it feels like it was yesterday kind of
i still love him and all but its just hard when i remember how i can be so scared of him. unfortunately its so easy to split on him now. it feels like before he was on such a pedestal and now i can just see him for the . Guy he is . because he is just a Guy who can at any point in time hurt me more than anyone else . but also love me more than anyone else. man. i feel like im in a yaoi right now
my image of both him and myself just completely shattered . and i still have really low self esteem from it LOL . i just . like. really can’t imagine why he is even still dating me . i dont think im like , that important. i mean i know what the bare minimum is and what is good and what isnt in a relationship, but also its so hard to imagine him even wanting to kiss me because dude , LOL. its hard to imagine me receiving ANY affection because in my head thats Impossible . completely crazy bananas .