I'm a disappointment..
05.04.2021
14 comments
-Heather111-
05.04.2021 16:44
LinkNo you aren't ! we all care about you
Hey, I'm sorry for making you feel this way. And I didn't want you to think I was just using you as a replacement. I wanted so bad to forgive you for all the manipulation and guilt tripping
But you just pull it every single day..
I can't forgive you if you keep doing the same things...
I just wanted to be there for you, but if you want to believe that I was just taking advantage of you, fine.
But all I can say is that I wasn't.
This really really does hurt me to say all of this, because I ****ing loved you.
I only spend more time with her it's because I lost her for 10 ****ing months!!
It was never my intend to hurt you or hurt her or hurt myself!
So I'm just saying this so you don't have to.
I love you, Will, I do.
But this doesn't mean I forgive you.
Manipulation?
Guilt tripping?
WHEN DID I EVER DO THAT?!!?
YOU SPEND MORE TIME WITH HER THAN YOU DO WITH ME, I'VE BEEN THERE FOR YOU EVER SINCE I MET YOU.
AND DON'T GIVE THE EXCUSE OF "Oh I lost her for so long" BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WERE JUST USING ME.
I BET YOU DIDN'T EVEN SEE THIS EITHER.
"NOBODY CARES THAT I WAS CRYING EARLIER!
NOBODY CARES THAT I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF OVER THE WEEKEND BECAUSE MY FATHER HAS BEEN TRYING TO GET ME TO DO IT FOR YEARS!
NOBODY CARES THAT I'VE ALMOST DIED EVERY NIGHT IN MY SLEEP!!
NOBODY.
CARES!!!!"
You weren't a replacement and never were!!! I'm sorry that I missed the person I lost who was way closer to me! I was never trying to use you as a replacement!
As for the guilt tripping and manipulation,
YOU TRIED TO MAKE UP FOR DOING ME WRONG BY A PIECE OF ART?
WHAT THE ****??
DONT YOU REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED WITH PARASITE AND THAT 'COME TO JESUS' ****ING MOMENT??
YOU WERE LITERALLY GOING ON ABOUT HOW 'Ohh I'm so sad, nobody ever helps me' WHEN I WAS THERE FOR YOU
I TRIED AND TRIED TO REASON WITH YOU AND FORGIVE YOU FROM HURTING YOU AND ME BOTH
BUT YOU DON'T LISTEN
AND NOW YOU'RE GUILT TRIPPING MORE AS CALLING YOURSELF A REPLACEMENT AND SAYING 'I'VE BEEN THERE FOR YOU EVER SINCE I MET YOU'
WHAT THE HELL DUDE?!?!
CAN I ALSO MENTION THE FACT YOU SAID IN THE CTJ MOMENT
"SHE'S my FRIEND, and I would never hurt HER! I love HER so much!!"
BULLSHIT!
YOU SHOULD REALLY LOOK AT DETAILS FOR ONCE!!!
MAYBE THEN YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND ALL I HAVE DONE FOR THE ****ING PEOPLE I KNOW!!!
YOU'VE DONE NOTHING!!!
IN THOSE ****ING MOMENTS WHEN PARASITE WAS ****ING INSULTING ME YOU DID NOTHING BUT AGREE WITH THEM!!!
THE ONLY TIME YOU ACTUALLY TRIED TO HELP WAS WHEN I WAS SPELLING THINGS WRONG!!!
THAT.
IS.
IT.
BECAUSE HE WAS ****ING RIGHT!!!
YOU HAVE BEEN BAD TOWARDS ME
YOU YELLED AT ME OVER PIXILART
IF YOU REALLY CARED WE WOULDN'T BE DOING THIS!
I WANTED TO STAY BY YOU BECAUSE AT FIRST YOU GAVE ME THE LOVE I NEEDED
WHICH I WAS EXTREMELY THANKFUL FOR
AND THEN YOU STARTED GOING ON ABOUT 'OH WOE IS ME I'M GONNA OFF MYSELF BECAUSE NOBODY CARES'
NOBODY CARES???
NOBODY ****ING CARES???
3 TIMES WE'VE TRIED AGAIN
AND EACH TIME FAILED BECAUSE OF YOUR INCAPABILITY TO THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU WERE GOING TO SAY
AND WHO HELPED YOU CALM DOWN OVER THE PHONE?
WHO WAS WORRIED FOR YOU WHEN YOU GOT GREETED BY A GHOST??
WHO MADE YOU GIFTS BECAUSE THEY ****ING LOVED YOU???!
I'm done with this.
I'm done with everything.
Don't talk to me for a while.