Why am I happy but sad at the same time? I should be happy because I was able to swim today and get my hair done and me with my Grandparents but I don't feel very happy. I was able to get all this shit off my chest a while ago but I'm starting to get sad again and I don't know why... I feel like I need someone(Like my BF or one of my best friends) to love me and be with me but my family/religion doesn't allow me to love someone like that until I'm married and it makes me happy but sad, too. I seriously need some love right now. I feel stupid for being depressed because I see other people that are depressed and they have good reasons... I don't even know my reason right now I feel so sad and stupid I just wanna hide in a hole and die there