"what a useless daughter, i wished for a boy" ... "stop it. you arent funny" ... "get out." ok.. "SHUTUP" i will.. "STOP IT" what did i do...? "you dont deserve anything... useless daughter" i dont.. i am "LEAVE ME ALONE" but... i love you... "best friend" please dont leave me... "you're alone..." help me "disgusting lesbians..." mom... why me..? "thats why you have no friends haha" ... you said you wouldnt leave me... now you stab my back...? "pathetic... i wish i never had a daughter like you... you dont do ANYTHING... you dont DESERVE anything.. you are worth less then the garbage i throw away everyday.." dad why...?

mom please i- "im busy" dad i cant do this- "shut up.." big brother..? "grow up" ... "why are you crying? it doesnt fix anything???" mom dont say that please... "you dont deserve to cry..." help me... "i understand.." NO YOU DONT... "trust me.." i cant... "i love you" mom and dad... stop lying with those three words... "there is worst you know so stop complaining.." ok.. "smileee" ok.. "are you ok?" im fine "dont lie" if i tell the truth... you'll get mad... mom... i love you.. "aminah wait! im busy are you retarded?!?!" ...

alone...

"aminah are you retarded?!? do you no have anything in there?!?! WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT" mom.. its my birthday.. "100 dollars as your gift!!" you forgot again...

its ok.. i just needed to get this off my chest.. sorry for venting.

dont be sorry im fineeeeeee jeez i just share my usual state and ya act so apologetic towards something ya didnt even do.. ellie you're my best friend.. no need to apologize okie?

its not ur obligation to be here all the time okie? you dont need to worry im fine jeez i just felt a bit of pressure again from my parents and wrote down what i go through ^^

its fine babe you dont need to be sorry. you make things better and you make me happier. so please dont get sad over something that is a common thing that i face.. its part of life and i gotta face it until i come of age to leave the house..