Just from stuff that has happened outside of flipanim It has made me see this guy differently, like from doing very stupid this game that a are very personal that I’m not gonna say as made me see thing differently. And I honestly feel like a person that doesn’t deserve this account on honestly any of the friends I made on here. I feel like leaving but y’know when people get addicted to their phones or stuff. It’s like I’m addictive to this website and this place is honestly so toxic. I want to leave but I also wanna stay for my friends on here. But I want to talk to people on here who really understand me. Because I feel like my family nor my friends do. I feel like a failure to people and that I’m not doing stuff to make them like me or be happy. I feel like a toxic person by my actions and talking about certain things. I lie to much about stuff I don’t want to talk about and it bothers me. I want to be honest but I feel like I can’t control the lying.

I felt like I’ve changed into a bad person ever since all the 2020 stuff started. I feel like a rude, lazy, cold person. I hardly care about what my friends think now. I’m honestly hating myself right now and I’m really done with everything. But I’m still trying to be nice and not angry since I have anger issues. You all probably didn’t know I had anger issues but I do. I just hide how I can get angry easily. I think my anger makes me more mad at myself and I take that anger out on people, which makes me hate myself more because I’m hurting the people around me. Whenever I see someone I know hurting I feel like it my fault. I always think that for some reason when it’s usually not my fault. I don’t know why but when my friend is like mad or something I try to keep my distance from them and not make them angry. But I keep close to them so they can have me as a friend.

But I think I’m the most annoying, person in the world. My brother says it all the time. My friends probably think that too, and probably people on here to think that. Some things have been making realize how bad I can be. Like how I copy people. I copied people when I was younger and sometimes I do now. I think I just wanted and sometimes try to be cool. But I know I never will be. Because I’m that one kid that’s quiet but loud when it’s comes to seeing their friends.

I hate everything and especially myself. My anxiety is shooting through the roof right now and it can’t stop.

I’m done honestly. With myself, people, and just everything. This is probably gonna end up in me taking a break or just leaving fa or this account.

Bye