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POTUS??
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Ethan-Bean 
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10.03.2019
171 comments
Ethan-Bean[OP]
10.03.2019 15:05
Linkmy muscles and body hurts so much i dont wanna move at all
Ethan-Bean[OP]
10.03.2019 15:05
LinkBut like every morning i have to get some reps in and exercise
please say something.... it's scary... T^T I don't want to die..... T^T
...I need to tell you something... T^T but I don't want to... T^T I don't..... mmh T^T..
why?.... T^T is it something bad did someone hurt you or something id someone.. ****ING KISS YO UCAUSE I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL...
...I guess.. well.... when I woke up....I just... I.. T^T it hurts me to say it..... T^T I feel so ****ing bad...
you kissed someone when you woke up right...... thats what you were gonna say right..
I was so ****ing sad when you were in a coma and now you're just gonna ****ing do that to me..
im sorry T^T i waited so long for you to wake up and i was so happy when you did T^T and I ..
I was scared and stuff when you werent awake and I.. I don't want you to leave me please T^T
I know . we can make it work I know it please T^T please.. im sorry T^T.. please
PLEASE T^T dont leave me dont please you promised i would never leave you no matter what i was going through or was told and i havent T^T
YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME YOU SAID YOU DID AND IT MADE ME FEEL SO LUCKY AND HAPPY AND I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF YOU
i can make you have feelings again please.. T^T dont leave me I did so much for you i really did.. T^T
YOU DO STOP ****ING PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU ID DO ANYTHING FOR YOU OTHER THAN ****ING FINDING SOMEONE NEW
PLEASE T^T I WANT TO VISIT YOU AND STUFF BUT PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME PLEASE T^T
I can't handle being in a long distance relashionship...... I'm sorry..... it's just too much for me.... I thought we could do it... and maybe youu can.... but I can't...
I've been scared and in a lot of pain from surgery and my eye and you in a coma and ive been so stressed please i don't want you to leave me please.. T^T
Please.. T^T... Please... Please.. you said you loved me and you have the same sweatshirt as me and everything and ..i was there for you when no one wasnt
...T^T I know... and I'll always keep that sweatshirt... and maybe one day when we are both older and can travel and stuff, we can get back together......
but i cant take it anymore this life is too stressful and i ****ing hate it
but it's too late now because im gonna be gone.. these two feet wont be standing on here anymore..
i gave yo ueverything i did everything anything i treated you like you wanted to i did ddlg for you because i liked it and so did you and you jsut throw everything away just like that.. you hurt me and crush me..
why can't you ****ing let me prove to you... you jsut sit there like it's all okay with me and it's gonna make you feel better but you're ****ing wrong..
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I just want a ****ing chance to prove to you i can do it for you i but you wont ****ing let me T^T i can prove it
and think about it you'll get your license soon.. T^T Please just let me prove to you.. PLEASE..
please give me a chance please T^T.... because i dont know what i'd do without you except kill myself..
you're the only reason why im ****ing alive and just by doing that you're literally killing me T^T..
...please don't kill your self Ethan..... find someone who lives closer to you and makes you happier than I do..... I know you can.... T^T
PLEASE JUST LET ME ****ING PROVE TO YOU PLEASE THATS ALL IM ASKING GIVE ME A ****ING CHANCE T^T
GIVE ME A ****ING CHANCE T6t I SAT THERE WAITING FOR YOU I DIDNT EVEN GET ****ING SLEEP
I WENT THROUGH PAIN FOR YOU JUST TO SEE YOU WAE UP SO I COULD TAKE CARE OF YOU AGAIN T^T
I can't ethan... T^T I'm not going to pretend to have feelings for you and just end up hurting you more later on.... T^T
.....you pretend you have feelings for me?.... you've been doing that our whole relationship?....
I was gonna say how... I would take care of you hold you make you feel feelings again and give you the best life i could... and I was also gonna say how much i loved you and stuff but..
it like giving everything to a person from a sale but they break all the stuff inside thats important..
....i just want you to love me.. i want you to care.. I knew my friend was right when he said "You know when people wake up from coma's their personality changes a little right?"
But i said "No.. I believe she'll wake up, she will and she'll be the same again."
People make fun of you for having diabetes and i dont i take care of you most people dont i treat you the way you want to be treated weather you want to be treated 5 or 7 i dont care.. i will do it and i did anything for you anything thats why i dont want you to leave me cause you mean so much and i love you so much but you end it after i have done so much for you... it's like i did it out of nothing T^T..
I just want to make you feel again like love me again.. T^T but you wont give me a chance..
I did so much for you and i can do so much more and help you because it's because of your coma that you don't love me anymore it's what happens but you wont give me a chance T^T
....I have to go..... please just keep living... find someone better... have a great life.... T^T I'm sorry for ****ing hurting you... I really am...... T^T I didn't know I would lose feelings.... and I didn't want to.... but it just happened T^T....
your coma has negative affects on you and you listen to them T^T.. why wont you realize it's your coma... you were never like this before T^T you loved it and you said we could do it.. and we'd get farther than any of them
you never gave me a chance.. I can help you feel those feelings again you just wont let me.... it's your fault though... that yo uwont let me..
.....im losing the one that loved me im losing the one who did love me.. im losing the one who made me feel so much more to the world... im losing the one who kept me alive but ..
Now im not alive so .... this is my final and last goodbye.. because im not staying on this earth much longer..
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I miss you, I need you, I love you..
I was there for you when you were down and sad and depressed, I saved you from self harm and death.
I gave you the best relationship, I gave you bun bun, milky, I tucked you in and i played stuffies and watched tv shows and videos and movies with you..
I was always there beside you holding you, kissing you, cuddling you, holding your hand, petting you, rubbing your legs and back, making you comfortable..
I would always tell you how cute you are and beautiful and how much I love you.. I would go on walks with you and rock you like a baby and carry you and hold you in my arms... I would always say how cute you are for being so short...
How you would sneek a beer from the fridge without me knowing and drink it. How i would feed you crackers and warm up your milky..
How I told you to c.a.p pretend im there and ilysfm and you'd tell me that too...
How i'd kiss your neck and your hand and your head and your lips and tickle you until you held my hands and t
told me, "Nwooo!! >w<" with your cute little face
How I would be there for you always despite the rough times, I'd always appreciate every moment with you even though it was hard sometimes but most of the time we were happy and happy together.. and even though we were long distance we were gonna prove them wrong we were gonna be the best couple out there..
I'm crying while saying this..
I love you.... forever and always.. please rethink what you said today... and realize im gonna help you remember your feelings for me.. It's just something from your coma..
you'll remember your feelings for me i swear... just it will take some time..
Ilysfm c.a.p pretend im there cuddle my sweatshirt too i always will and do... I love you forever and always... T^T
I'm a fighter I'm not a quitter I'm gonna keep fighting for my old baby back whatever it takes.. I just want my baby back T^T I just I want you back I need you T^T you were afraid of me losing feelings over you but I never have but I was afraid you were gonna lose feelings over me and you said you never would but you have you even promised but you broke it T^T I just please I don't want you to leave me because I have so much with you and we've done so much together and we love each other so much but you won't let me help you love again why won't you let me help you I just want to help you and take care of you T^T I know were long distance but I've done a he'll a lot more than people do when they're with you or live near you.. I actually make you smile laugh and cheer you up when you're sad... Im always there for you when someone isn't.. T^T it hurts I just want you,back.. Please... Give me a chance T^T
I love you.. And I know you still love me and none of the things you did and said even add up T^T you were in a coma for 2 days woke up told me. 1. You're grounded from your phone 2. Your respond time from the coma was way too quick for it to be a real coma and you did the same for the 2 week coma and said you didn't love me anymore you lost your feelings but I researched that this only happens when caused by injury which impairs the brain. But yours was a disease not injury
Then number 3. I know you would never want to say you lost feelings for me it just isn't you nor your own words
Number 4.I know your dad hates me a lot and forces you to say stuff like last time and you barely had time like 0 time to delete your history before you went into your coma and I think you made coma as an excuse for 2 weeks and a couple of days because of what happened at home that you didn't want to say so you made an excuse.so i think your dad told to say it. Not saying it wasn't real and if it was in so damn sorry and
T^T... You said you would never leave me.Not a like you just got sick of me..T^T I just want my old baby back T^T please.... I don't want you to leave me T^T...I need you..
T^T..ill do anything for you back... Please you said you were my baby girl T^T my little dino and I was your daddy T^T and I was yours and you were mine T^T
I-i don't now what to say...I'm so sorry about everything... Please don't kill yourself over this... You have such a long life to live, I lost a close friend to suicide, and i'm sure she won't want you to commit suicide, even if she did break up with you.
I know she wouldn't want to break up with me either.. We've had a long history together and a very amazing one.. And I'm sure she never would want to say that. Her dad hates me and forces her to say things exactly like that and it hurts that she listens to it. She deserves a better family and if I'm the one she wants and needs then I'm always gonna be there for her I know she didn't want to say that I'm still gonna hold onto her and keep her safe and comfortable with me no matter what and no body will hurt her...