Thinking about leaving F.A
by:
Canada-bean 
614
614
30.11.2020
10 comments
Canada-bean[OP]
30.11.2020 03:09
LinkI've been on this website for about 6 months now and
It first started out fine
But then I started getting into toxic relationships with other people
Then those toxic relationships got to me then I noticed I started getting toxic
And now I just can't talk to my "friends" without having an Anxiety attack
And I don't want to leave them cause their good people and I'm just a jerk
So when I took a another
break from f.a it was like nobody remembered who I was
And now I just feel like absolute crap and feel bad
I don't even know what I did wrong I just know it had to been something
And I just can't talk to anybody without freaking out
I had so many friends and people on my side and now I just
Have nothing,,,
Canada-bean[OP]
30.11.2020 03:14
LinkYou guys were so kind to me and
I was just an jerk
I didn't comprehend feelings
I couldn't react to someone else crying
And when I did I start having an panic attack and start crying myself
Heck I cried each time my friends even took a week break from flipanim
And if someone even leaves for an month all I will do is look at their account just waiting for them to come back
And now I feel nobody would even miss me if I left
I can't shake this feeling I messed up
Plus I make cruel jokes that hurts people feelings
So I am sorry this is also an Apology
I doubt anybody will see but still an apology
Canada-bean[OP]
30.11.2020 03:21
LinkBut at the same time I don't want to leave
And I want to make contact with my friends I really do
I want to talk to them and just wish I can go back when we always talked!
I'm actually crying thinking about it
I hate what ever I done I want to be with my friends all of them
Every last one of them
They helped me when I was sad I helped
Them and now I can't do anything
I want to change that I know I can't get back in contact with all them
Which upsets me like once again to the point of crying
I just feel like crap I want to leave but I also don't
I want to change what ever I done,,
yeah this site is shit
Of course I wouldn't want you to leave but being here certainly isn't the best
i dont even know you on a personal level. so i wouldnt really notice in the first couple months. honestly, if you want to leave, go for it! im not stopping you or making your decisions for you.
