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don't fill this anim up with gibberish now

Yeah oki

lol i already have a very long to do list

i have uh....wait

i have 8 things to do and some grocery list reminders for some reason

yeah thats my to do list here on FA...

ooh i like it. many redraws. im going to do a few too soon. like, midnight101 designs

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yeah the pass

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mmk hold on

i was doing pe in my brothers' room because they have a mat and i dont. im supposed to video myself so that's what i was doing. i was doing it for like, 20 min, just perfecting the exercises before my brother and sister come home. my brother didnt like me exercising in there so my dad told me to get out and do it somewhere else. theres literally no where else to do it. my family doesnt understand the effort i put into things and they dont even care. like, they call me the chill and shy girl and when i get mad theyll say, its cause im almost a teen and thats how itll be. and then my sister lashes out at people and my parents consider it normal. ive been dealing with my sister for a very long time and no one even cares about how she affects me and my life. and so, im trying to avoid my family so i dont lash out, because even though im extremely mad at them, i want to stay away so i dont hurt them, even if they think its for other reasons. i dunno. ive been caring for my family for so long that they just think m

-e being mad is an abnormal thing. like frick you think im gonna stay calm when my sister discourages me every day and my parents dont understand what im comfortable and uncomfortable with???

and no, i didnt say "frick you" i said, "frick, you" cause i dont want to hate anyone.

thanks well uhhh, the thing with my sister has been going on for more than a year. at the start of 2019 or something she got extremely scared of something and i started sleeping with her more often. which went on for all of 2019. she still demands things of me and we share a room, which just disappoints me even more. she likes saying, "I dont care," and likes to shut me up a lot. so, she does have a lot of power over me just because she doesnt want me having power over her, even though i am older. i have dealt with this a lot, so i cant stop it. i dunno anymore but i know this can get better.

yeah uh, i dont normally get mad but i get really pissed off and annoyed at some things that make me feel uncomfortable. so i hold my hi polymer eraser around with me a lot in case i need something to get all my stress and anxiety out. ive been yeeting it at a lot of things in my room lately, so i dont think i should touch my drawing tablet anytime soon :| no one else understands why im attached to an eraser-

lol the other night i mentioned wendigos cause i was rp with one and she shouted at me and told me to sleep with her :'D

no lol i have actual fidget toys, but im not satisfied with them. i like my eraser cause i usually use it and its something i like carrying around

yes i love my eraser. my eraser is my fren.

i cant view but i think so

here it is: https://ibb.co/2gGpBt0

Jellyyyyy thank you so so much. ah yeah my eraser is my best fren during these times and im just so afraid of hurting people these days. my sister said, "Do you even feel guilty about anything?" I feel guilty about lying, not answering texts, ignoring people, forgetting things, disappointing people, leaving people out, having fun when someone else isnt. life is hard but this is what i have to do to get through i guess.

yeah i have some from last year

aw okayyyy im sorry. living up to expectations are hard, but listen to your own expectations and say, "improvement! ill improve and ill show everyone that i can be at my best when i set my own goals!" i dunno thats weirdddd

eeeee i only like soft pretzels but cool!

yay tasty!