something bad Is Going To Happen soon i never get this depressed unless something bad happens. maybe im this down cuz i just had to tell someone to **** off today. or maybe its the energy of the past while of actually enjoying socializing and getting out of an abusive household

this pattern also happens if i get crushes! or if i talk to anyone too much! i consider myself a floater friend cuz i love all my friends but i dont have that One Friend quite yet that i can vent to or just. Talk About Everything to. im scared and im tired

watch this guys i'll ghost EVERYONE for like a week and then come back mentally ill

what literally everyone doesnt realize is that im masking 24/7 so i dont bring my friends down cuz im sad so im slowly draining any energy i have as days go by

"you seem so happy and joyous!" its because i dont want to be a debby downer and end up making everyone miserable around me. im not allowed to be sad or down! gotta be the humorous jokester with tons of whimsy and love, right?

i cant even take my psych meds cuz they make hallucinations 100x worse

watch this gang im gonna bed rot and force myself out of any sort of romantic feelings for a crush so i can feel better!