rant or wtv
by:
MaxiTheNerd 
885
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12.07.2023
27 comments
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:37
LinkI'm scared that things will change I know I'm almost a month clean but it just doesn't feel right without it
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:37
Linklike I feel like I need to do it at least once a week
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:38
LinkI remember in school I would go to the bathrooms and \\\scr4tch myself because I couldn't handle it
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:38
LinkI once brought scissor s with me but I don't remember what happened after that
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:39
LinkI want it so bad but then everyone will be disappointed in me
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:39
LinkI need it
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:39
LinkNo one understands
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:39
LinkNobody trusts me anymore
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:39
LinkI don't even trust myself
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:40
LinkStarted taking new meds yesterday to help with depression because apparently I was at the max dose so I got more
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:41
LinkWhy does this even matter why do I even bother this is just a waste of time
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:41
LinkNothing is getting better
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:44
LinkIm trying so hard just 3 more days. Then it will be a month. But I don't want this I don't want change I want to keep using this as a coping strategy I need this I need this nobody understands I can't stop its been so ****ing difficult without it but I need it
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:46
LinkEverything is just so confusing
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:46
LinkWhat am I even doing here
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:46
LinkI am not real am i
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:46
LinkNothing is real
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:46
LinkWow these meds are not working
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:47
LinkNeg stimming so much. RN
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:50
LinkComofrt media........ Time to find comfort media.......
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
12.07.2023 00:52
LinkI can't remember
it's okay to do something tagt makes you comfortable. It should feel right to live your life as is, you shouldn't have to change if you dont want to. do what **YOU** are most comfortable with. ily Luke /p always know you can talk 2 me if something isnt right 2 you. I'm, v I'm your friend, I'm always here 4 you </3
thank you but i don't think people would agree that my coping mechanism is ok they want me to change
you shouldn't have to change for other ppl. what YOU think is what matters here. they shouldnt try to make you change if you dont want to. your body, your choice. dont let them control you just be urself <3