D: No don't say that :( Hold tight my friend, we still have a future ahead of us and this is only apart of our life. Not everything goes our way and that's okay! I don't know what's really going on but I hope this helps you. Sometimes you just need to take a break from the world and forget everything, just go somewhere that makes you feel comfortable and breath, listen to the world and live in the moment for a second. Maybe even take a hot bath.

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