I’m gonna go on a rampage 💔

I’m not good at art I’m not good at making friends I’m not good I’m not good I’m not good I’m not good I’m not good I swear toooo GODDDDD!!!!!! Wtf!!! Scuse me for being selfish 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 BUT WHAT THE **** BROOOOO

Waaahhh 😭😭😭😭😭

I don’t understand what makes me so hard to interact with chat ahahha Like Okay I’m like Hhhh What did I do? It’s just so silly how I’ll spiral after one person decides not to be around me anymore I’ll wait for someone for months before I decide to just end it Obviously if they don’t wanna interact back then they don’t wanna be around me right! Right!!!!

Spiraling frfr Cutting sounds yummy rn but I’m not gonna **** up my hand even more than it already is rn

I can’t even get all my thoughts out gross! Gross gross gross gross grossssss! People like me have no place in this world I don’t want to be that last option anymore It’s disgusting

I try really really hard to make friends I go out and interact with new people now and I’ve tried a lot of different platforms and shared my art just like anyone else “It just takes time” TIME. THAT I DONT HAVE. I’m already thinking about suicide daily again and it’s crazyyyy I can’t keep going through the cycle of trying to kms, making a new friend, drifting from said friend, and then wanting to kms againnnnn it’s not f a i r I just wanna throw a fit like I see the other people on this site doing But for some reason it’s not ok

Gay asf! Maybe I should just become a troll Those people get a lot of interactions..I guess? Those people also annoy the hell out of me..

Everyone makes friends so easily why am I the only person out of everyone I know who just can’t? I literally wait for one person all day Wait for him to message me and ask to do our almost daily routine It’s so Dehumanizing I guess I never really get to say anything about it either Even if this site is like my personal diary, I can’t really say specifically what ticks me off because they’ll see it and immediately shut down because that’s just what they do and I can’t expect much from that I can’t do anything about it

I hate being rude, not because I’m nice or anything but because I’m selfish and don’t wanna be left all alone I hate feeling like I’m being guilt tripped when I say something about it and they shut down and I’m like..damn well “it doesn’t bother me that much”

All I have is that one person who messages me daily DAILY. like a friend would They don’t ever really come to me for requests, they don’t ever push me to do art or anything with them, they just..share their creativity with me. And I love that about him. Honestly it’s so refreshing. So I can’t. Believe. That I’m NOT selfish for getting annoyed with the things they do time from time

Sorry I shouldn’t be venting when so many people are on

My art is good. I just don’t think I’ve reached a point where people comment on it I guess. No that’s not it.. I am good I just need to reach the right people I need to stop focusing on pleasing the algorithm of some social media platforms and just..draw It’s been a while since I’ve had ideas to make art just for arts sake It’s not something I’m passionate about anymore

Thank you guys

Anxiety

Bf falls down some stairs into oncoming traffic asmr

You’re really sweet thank youu