im not gonna but 1. i wanna and 2. it feelz like i will

im gonna ****ing die i havent slept in forever ive been working on shit i dont even understand I havent eaten coz i dont have the energy to i just dont wanna get hit or yelled at by my parents again but thatz prolly whatz gonna happen

hey maybe you relisten to episodez of where do we begin and maybe you'll feel better? no bc i can either spend my time continuing to cry while listening to the funnyman show or i could work on stuff im gonna get a bad grade on anywayz and end up forgetting to turn in bc of my super bad executive dysfunction

god i hate school for yearz my mental health haz been wearing down bc of the stress. it doeznt matter itz not gonna get me anywhere im prolly gonna off myself b4 i have a chance 2 get a job so why not drop outta high school az soon az i get the chance lol

you dont know how strong of an urge i have 2 throw this god damn chromebook accross the room or bash my head against the wall or somethin along thoze linez

this iznt even that recent of a problem in 6th grade id go weekz without sleeping all bc of how stressed out i constantly am. the only reazon i kindof sleep iz becauze i either cry myself 2 sleep or i have so little energy i just pass out coz i cant keep my eyez open

helphelpelphelp i want advice but i dont wanna hear "oh just try 2 focus nn do it <33333" like alwayz coz I ****ING CANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my brain iz literally ****ed up my whole life ive been like this and no onez EVER considered that i might have a learning disability other than my homeroom teacher from last year and me <333333

if ur wondering why i alwayz vent so much l8 at night itz bc thatz when i try to do homework that stressez me out a lot nn im left alone with my thoughtz and i stop tryna act like im near ok around other ppl in this house!!!!

yea i sent in a report 1 time when i waz like. planning on offing myself or smthn bc of how hard class iz and she'z gonna switch me to non honorz classez next semester but that meanz i gotta work on stuff THIS semester and therez literally no way i can bring ANY of it up to a grade that wouldnt get me beat by my parentz gradez are due FRIDAY and my average iz like......40. nn even she thinkz itz bc im lazy nn that i spend all my time goofin off nn the only advice shez ever given me waz 2 try 2 organize my time better and 2 focus on my work but i literally cant <3

i dont think any of my teacherz would believe that i need an extension bc of how many oppourtunitiez ive had 2 turn stuff in and no one takez "i cant" or "i dont know" az a genuine answer anymore. why cant i do my work? i dont know and i cant just say oh yeah maybe itz bc i have like adhd or autizm but i havent even gotten tested yet bc everyone just thinkz im QUIRKY and super lazy