cutting isnt working alcohol isnt working smoking isnt working

i cannot be fixed

i havent seen my therapist in so long and i miss her. i just. :)

i keep asking for signs that my life might just be worth it and i havent gotten any. im really starting to think that my purpose in life is to kill myself so that i can make those around me stronger.

and if thats what im meant for then thats what im going to do