i’m not a lead, an actor, not even main ensemble

i’m the ****ing ISLAND ENSEMBLE

THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO HAVE TO BE THERE FOR 5 HOURS EVERY SATURDAY WHEN IM IN THE ****ING ISLAND ENSEMBLE.

god what’ll i even do anymore if i quit musical, be a disappointment? what else am i supposed to do?? im so mentally exhausted i shouldn’t even be in musical because it’s something that requires energy and motivation

who’s gonna notice if i were to quit anyways there’s already enough dancers for the island ensemble😭 on top of that i hate dancing with a passion because im terrible at it and its just not my thing

why did i even join musical

theatre same thing

and the worst part is the reason i hate going to practice so much is because i won’t get to see my friends at dismissal im so desperate to see them even for a little bit because of how ****ing little i get to see them throughout the day i get to see them at homeroom and dismissal and that’s it sometimes for like a second in the halls but that’s nothing because we have to keep on walking, it’s not like we can causally make conversation while switching classes

until the show in MARCH.💔

RIGHT making us work from 9-2 just for a school musical

my sister was in the NUTCRACKER which is probably more popular than whatever we’re doing and they didn’t even make her practice for that long yeah she had to go every saturday but at least they didn’t use up half of her day ??? and for what?? are they just gonna force me to learnt the dance routine 50 times ? what could they POSSIBLY need 5 whole ****ing hours EVERY saturday for