I'll never be like you. I'll never be as good as you, as smart as you, I'll always be a low life nothing. I'm so annoying, everyone hates me. I've been told to kms enough. I've been told to slit my wrists, to cut to the bone. To sit in a bathtub and cut myself until I stain the water red with blood. To give up hope and shoot myself in the head. To stick a knife through my body, to kill my own family and myself. I've been threatened to be raped, killed, shot. People always tell me I'm not good enough. I've been through enough. If it weren't for my loving family being there for me I would've ended my own life on the spot. I don't feel any emotions, they have all left me. I'm left with nothing. Emptiness. Emotional scars that won't go away. I've caused my family so much pain that I can't undo. Scars that won't heal. Words that won't be forgotten. All I want is to have a close bond with them. I ruined it all. You're perfect, they love you so much. You've never caused any damage as bad as I have. I'm nothing. <\3