****ass depressive episode thought it had me smh I had a random ass awakening at 4am and I'm so back

If I truly love my partner and my friends I will not let my fear of change or losing people get in the way tbh I have come to terms with the fact that losing people is apart of life and apart of learning and if I continue to waste my time worrying instead of loving then it'll only drive me to lose people quicker (because i have commitment issues at times and tend to have this random urge to ghost those close to me because of anxiety) and tbh all I'm doing is running away from experiences I should be experiencing at my age anyways my life is only so small and I should value what I have

If I truly love my partner and my friends then it doesn't matter how long they stay I should value and love them while they're still with me instead of worrying when they'll disappear also its not even like my friends plan on leaving me anyways I mean leaving as in losing contact since I know I drift away from people a lot and they drift away from me I also need to accept that everyone processes things differently and I shouldn't overthink every little thing when it's just that simple that people are just different and that's awesome humans have to adjust to eachother sometimes and that's okay (to an extent obv but u catch my drift) I shouldn't be afraid to step out of my comfort zone I feel it's an important thing to do

My love overpowers my anxiety let's go I think I've finally managed to fix an issue I've been dealing with for ages I'm quite happy with myself I love my partner I love my friends and my moots everyone's so awesome I wish happiness upon everyone I love everyone

Hek yah Hello how are you