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little me would've been Proud.
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Skipper[OP]
14.09.2025 22:17
LinkUnfortunately, I think little me would've been proud.
I joined this site when I was 10 years old. I joined over the summer, and after 2 months I had turned 11. I had spent majority of my childhood on this site. And a lot of my time that was spent here subjected me to horrible things. I was shown feral porn to the point where I thought an attraction to animals was normal. I didn't break out of this mindset until I was 12 years old. I was shown incestuous relationships which I thought were just as normal. I developed a large following on this site and was considered one of the bigger users on this platform. I developed attention seeking tendencies that, at the time, I didn't know would impact my behavior for the rest of my life.
Skipper[OP]
14.09.2025 22:17
LinkI prayed to whatever being was above that I'd get cancer. I prayed that I would have depression. I prayed that I would start cutting myself. I prayed that one day I would attempt suicide and I would be found and finally be taken seriously.
I developed habits that were honestly quite selfish. I was self absorbed. I was a people pleaser, and honestly I saw no faults in the way I behaved. This egotism made me spiral into a mean person with hatred in their heart, merely just wearing a mask of perfection.
I thought I was doing everything right. I thought there was nothing wrong in the way I behaved ever.
I'm turning 18 in two weeks. Every single thing I have done, I have said, I have THOUGHT, has come back to bite me in the ass. It's amazing how karma works, and I just wish I was taught about it at a younger age.
Skipper[OP]
14.09.2025 22:17
LinkLittle me got what they wanted. I am severely depressed, I have been since I was 13 (You can debate me being depressed at 11 by how negative I was, but that's a discussion for myself). I used to self harm frequently, and no, I don't have cancer, but I have severe joint issues that cause me extreme pain. I am disabled.
If little me were to be face to face, I think I would be the image she thought of whenever she thought about growing up. She'd expect me to have friends, attention, everything she wanted. I think my answer to that would be the one thing that would disappoint her. If I told her she lost the love of her life because of her aggressive and neglectful behavior, would she have been happy? If I told her that her depression got so bad to the point she forgot how to talk to people, would she have been happy? If I told her that she doesn't even have to TALK for people to think she's weird, would she have been happy?
Skipper[OP]
14.09.2025 22:17
LinkI don't miss this place. Of course I can't blame a whole site for all my issues, because of course my behavioral issues stemmed from something else so early on. Familial neglect, mental illness, social issues. But I can definitely say that this website didn't help me.
I'm exhausted.
And starting now, I have to go back and fix every single thing my adolescence manifested for myself.
Why did u pray for u to cut urself were u waiting for something to posess you and do it for yoy
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i was scared of hurting myself and i thought ppl who did it were cool and i wanted to be so depressed to the point where i'd do it because i thought it would get me friends. it was stuff that was normalized very early on on flipanim when i was younger. ppl drew themselves cutting for attention and i wanted to be like that too
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dude, don't blame yourself for things you did when you weren't even a tween yet. nobody blames you. nobody hates you for it. you're not responsible for the way that unsupervized internet access changed and messed with your child mind in middle school. im happy to hear you Want to change, and want to take accountability, but its like, .. nobody is asking you to apologize for things you said and did and thought at 13-14. not to diminish, but the ages between 12-16 is THE primetime to **** up. everybody gets ****ed up or ****s up someone else, and that doesn't make it ///okay/// , nor is it excusable behavior, but you were a Kid. Not an adult. an adult learns from the mistakes they made and puts it behind them. you need to stop thinking about all these things, and put it behind you! you will never change or move on if you keep on Thinking about all the ways you failed as a ///child///. it isn't doing yourself good, it wont do anyone around you any good.
it shouldn't be "oh my god i feel so bad i did this when i was __ im ****ed up, im horrible, why did i do that? i need to do better." it Should sound a lot more like, "i can't believe i did that! i was so immature back then and i didn't know any better about how to treat people. hopefully this teaches me to know how to treat my friends and myself from now on. i am Going to do better than that"
Thank you dude. I do carry that last mindset too, I just feel like I deserve to go through a fit of guilt and regret so I can improve further and whatnot. At 16 i displayed abusive behavior. That’s something that I will feel guilty bout for AWHILE, because if I don’t have guilt, I’ll fall back into abusive behavior, yk? I am going to do better now. I know I am better now, but still it is ok to reflect, compare, and move on at the same time.
yeah! im not gonna tell you that you cant or shouldnt feel guilt and regret, because those emotions exist for a reason to tell us that we've done something wrong. but there will be a day that you realize that being 16 was forever ago, and it'll put your actions from back then into perspective. but don't let your guilt drive you! im glad your thinking and reflecting though :-)! its something we all should do