ok so i was bored and kinda saw chris a the cringe person he used to be towards me so i just unfriended him exited him from my life basically then i.. i guess i regretted it..then i lost my ****shit mind and argued with someone making someone almost die,which gave me suicidal thoughts,being called edgy for my anxiety and depression,etc i basically put on a fake smile for everyone the entire time i was here,i didnt wanna get anyone into my problems and make them feel bad for me, back on the chris topic.i keep pushing him away for some reason when he knows im hurting,but my trust issues keep getting to the best of me,thats all..i guess.