Like just to put it bluntly for the sight reading. In reality i practiced for the minute we were given (didn't even get through 3 out of the 8 measures before the timer went off.) Then when i started singing i just kept stopping. Theres no retakes, no starting over. So after singing 4 out of 8.measures very terribly and probably incorrectly, i jsut sat in silence for three minutes staring at the paper and everything felt like it was blurring and mixing together and my brain just wouldnt work. So three minutes go by, absolute silence, until the judge says "do you want to keep going or would you like to stop" and you knoe i took that opportunity to get the hell out of there.

My step sisters girlfriend is so sweet she was holding my hand and telling me it was okay and jdhdhdjsj ive never had anyone care anout me in this way irl and i just hope my step sister treats her because she is so kind and sweet. Then after we finidhed we waited for the other sections to finish i wad quiet for a while until my friend came and asked for my phone to play roblox and i said okay even though she had my phone for the hour and 15 minute bus drive there and she kept playing weird games on roblox but yeah She used my phone on the ride home and she kinda hurt my feelings a little cuz idk i felt like really overwhelmed and i was hardly speaking but i domt think she noticed and kept joking around like.usual and pushing me around n stuff and i wad trying not to faint (i have the problem nowadays that when i get overwhelmed i get lightheaded. Ive yet to faint though) its ok though because she is a good friend to.me and seeing her happy is good

I feel so horrible to the people working at the dunkins that was near the school we audtioned at. Because oh my LORD. the place was full with students, not just our schools, but the other schools who auditioned. It was a very small dunkins, mind you... luckily they didnt seem understaffed but i tipped 3 dollars (im broke) in apologies for our school walking in without calling. Im a little sad that the blue raspberry coolatta they gavr me wasnt full all the way and didn't have whipped cream but thats ok even though i couldbt even drink it because it was just a chunk of ice with blue raspberry syrup on it but its ok. I got a sausage egg and cheese on a croissant ahhh so good When we arrived back at the school there was a craft fair going on so I bought her a crocheted frog keychain with a butt for 5 dollars and bought myself a crocheted fox with fairy wings for 20 I really like him and i want to come up with a good name for him so ill think about that :)

Today i hung out with my step sister a lot so that was fun. My mom had two of her friends over for a friendsgiving and me and my step sis just hid in my room playing breaking point 2 on roblox and watching TV :) I dropped my pizza on the.floor though... luckily no one saw so i just grabbed and ate it since i had just cleaned my floor anyway I had two slices of bacon for dinner im crying😭 i need to lock in on this taking care of myself stuff

Also i know.nobody reads these i really dont mind at all, some people try to ragebait me or whatever by telling me nobody reads them but its like... i dont care all that much. The posts are moreso for myself to remember past events and feelings since i have a really bad.memory So dont even feel like you need to comment on these huge rants unless youd like to, i love talking to people ! I also love being alone! Its fun :) ahhh im so tiredddddddd i didnt eant to go to bed ,but.i think i have to. Also the school i went to had a parking space painted as john pork and i admired it for quite some time.