I wish my life was normal. I wish I could go at least ONE single day without this pain.

Its getting worse and worse

but I cant go to the hospital because of this stupid covid-19 stuff

and my dad wont give my mom child-support funds, so she couldnt even take me there because she has such a low income

and after this covid-19 settles down, my mom probably wouldnt have enough money STILL, and if I told my dad about the pain, he wouldnt even hear me. even if he did he probably wouldnt care.

I dont even know what to do anymore.