its okay, just let it out.

dear god i know just how you feel dear. I've been damaged by the exact same thing you have It makes me feel so ****ing disgusting with these thoughts and I just want them to stop. But I can't. And it's tricked me into falling for people within months of knowing them. I feel like I'm too clingy and annoying so I try and keep myself quiet. I often want to talk to you more, just you and me, and just chat happily together. Like we used to. But it doesn't feel like 'us' anymore, yknow? I haven't had a real actual crush in ages either, you were really my only one. And I'm very glad you gave me the love that I needed to move forward in life. My brain wants me to ask people out, but most of the time I feel like they won't care enough about me or already have a lover. And i'm going to be very honest, I want to ask you out again. But neither of us are ready for anything like that. Emotions are so ****ing confusing, I know. But I just want you to know that I struggle with the exact same thing.

These thoughts make you feel disgusting and like a creep, but you can't get them to stop. I have tried, trust me.. But it's just so difficult and hard. But we can find a solution together, okay?

Maybe?? At least we know that we struggle with the same things, heh.. Anyways.. I don't even think I know what love is because of everything that happened with Squirrly and you and jstu everything When you and I were together, I actually felt it But with Squirrly it just felt like friends but just a tiny bit closer And I knew it was off. I suppose only time will tell what happens between everyone and us in the future

But yeah I just wanted you to know that I struggle with the same thing. And we can solve it together. Piece by piece, alright? Some pieces will just need more thinking.

No problem Weawy

it was just meant to make you feel better by letting you know that we care... should have worded it differently...

yeah, i made it thinking about someone else...

but it should still be shared

^-^