i made him sound like he was nothing to me, but he still terrifies me. i was trying to be strong and get through it but all i did was push myself back further. i still get attacked by him and it makes me feel insane. the last thing i want to see after he stops attacking me is you sexualizing him. i get it, your probably joking. (i hope) but maybe at least check in with me? see if it's okay to joke about him? because i'm not always okay with it, as fun as it may be. i don't know, i'm just low-key annoyed right now. maybe i'm just overreacting.

i've had nightmares of him r*ping me and it makes me feel so out of control. you joking about and sexualizing him makes me really uncomfortable i'm sorry