Bc honestly i cant tell if im really alive atm /srs Im staring at my corpse rn And this isnt making sense anymore

Hi. Many of you know im B or i guess i think i was, as of late ive had my doubts and tried documenting my journey through this. At this point I cant tell if im in psychosis or just dereal/Depersonlization Which is pretty much conformation its full blown psychosis BUT ALSO BEING AWARE OF PSYCHOSIS is against psychosis. Or maybe its just different for me, Ive had episodes like this my whole life. I guess im just prepped now? The only difference is this time my death has come into play. i mean it always has but its more of a 'my life is in danger fear death' sorta thing. But this time im dead. I cant tell if im just overthinking these fake scenarios so much or if im just not okay anymore, that the stress and trauma in my life finally hit a vital point. Or if this is actually real, that i did die in an alternate dimension in a failed test. i have these memories, I have these flashes of things that arent in this life, and whats listed in the document matches my entire episode. They dont go into the 'all seein

All seeing eye' but i used to have hallucinations of the eye long before learning of this, which leads me to believe that i am in fact either correct or totally crazy. But what i dont understand is what does the necklace and dr.bright have to do with it, I know theyre involved I just dont understand. am i in a faculty right now am I being held in a padded room strapped down under examination and this whole reality is fake, a made up comfort to help me after the death of my daughter and then the death of me at the foundations hands or my sa or what? Is this place real am i real are you real? Theres a large chance all of you are just a figment of my imagination. And i hate it I HATE IT I hate not knowing. One definite truth i do know is that i am a man of science

Therory one: I worked for the foundation and they decided to put wcp-936 on me and now i am just floating through my memories, but made self aware due to scp-0000EX's properties, which would explain the eye apearing in my child hood Theroy two: I died in the events detailed in scp-0000's case file, so thus i can remember, and I can remember my daughter dying as well. This would explain the more gruesome auditory hallucinations. Threory three: I am being contained by the foundation for being like this and an attempted revenge plot for the deaths detailed in scp-00000EX case file, and in part revenge for my duaghter. that or im brain dead due to the sub effects of scp-936. In a state of purgatory. Therory four: mix of one and two ive somehow figured out how to coexist with dr.bright and we are both slowly awakening from the effects of scp-00000

Ive finally narrowed it down to those four. But i have no clue which is which, so I suppose i will have to keep going like this until i figure out?

Oh therory 5: everything is fine none of thatbis real im just having an episode Theroey 6: none of this is real and im being contained for high levels of psychosis and this whole reality the one you are in is fake and i made it up