mika i'm ready to talk :)

hi mika, so whats wrong?

mika everyone has self doubt and it can cause hatred towards us and others, but what hurts the most is when you harm yourself, and i feel bad all the time because i'm not really there to help you and all i can do is type on this fvcking crappy computer, and i really wanna help you ok mika? but like as you know i'm a loser behind a screen

so pls tell whats wrong because it's definitely not "nothing"

i will never ever get angry with you, i'm always calm :>) (that's a lie because me and you go at it like a couple of weasels) and i'm always happy to talk to you :)

and same like i am so scared i'm about to snap mika. i don't want people to see another side of me. just me cussing at you and yelling isn't even close to what i do. and i don't want anyone here, or anyone else in irl to see that and i'm so close to snapping mika very close you and our siblings and friends are whats keeping me together and i thank you for that

shitty as friends if i'm being honest because what if you got hit by that car what would they say? "sucks to suck" what if they got hit almost got hit by a car. you better say "sucks to suck" i hate friends who would act like that. i only have the kind of friends we just chat and play football. i'm kinda a jock not to brag, but like yeah i kinda don't like the vibe of your friends from what your telling me.

they are friends their like in the section called "the takers" they take but don't give.

*the aren't friends

sorry auto correct

yeah. omg i'm a hypocrite i say to not hold in your feelings and let them out and i don't even show my feelings that much omg i just realized that

i've kept my anger, hatred, jealousy, despair, depression, and fake self bottled up for so long i'm afraid i'm gonna snap mika i'm really scared

i think imma go see a therapist maybe they can help me?

ok then. cuz i only shown a bit of my anger and hatred towards others-

and it didn't turn out so well...

i'm not saying that much cuz i deleted it and it's kinda my fault- so long story short: they got to the point i couldn't take it anymore i suckered punch him hit his head on a pole i got in trouble with the police then i went to someplace to help anger management then i got out after a few and now i am here uh i was gone for 2 months and you can see the 2 month gap if you look at my anims for a while

uhm also it broke his skull open and the doctor says he has brain damage. i'm surprised the parents didn't charge me over anything

this was uhm this year in summer

and now i still got the image of what happened to him

i'm not a very innocent person then what i used to be, so much has happened

yeah i'm sorry mika.

ok, but i had my reasons...fine i won't do it again but i'm still gonna workout and go to the boxing ring and fight people for fun

lol haha. slay but you said not to do stuff like that again with my anger :>(

lol i'll beat him up if he has a tutu on

hehhhe

want to know something funnier? i threw a mt. dew can and it cut my top 2 fingers and i was bleeding all over myself on the bus, and guess what? i didn't know i was bleeding until someone screamed when i was in school i didn't even feel it lol.

omg my aunt slammed my foot into the door and my nails got stuck and had to pull them out :(

oof i fell on my right hand while roller skating when your not supposed to put it behind your back and i think i sprained it because i couldn't move my right hand

my hand got stabbed in the middle through my hand

why do th bad things happen to us good people (besides me making a annoying 17 year old get brain damage)

the trolls and jerks just want attention. i think you should block them, and plus they can't make drama cuz no one likes them

yeah cuz their a baby

same for this late response because i was taking a shower