Fück I forgot to 18+ Anyways vent Feel free to ignore ☺️

Tw: s/h?? Me being depressing and dumb??? Idk warning. . . . . . . . . . . . . I keep promising ppl I'm doing better and that I'll better myself for them and then I go and forget it. How come only then I feel guilty? Rest of the time I'm not an empath. I think it's cuz I hate the fuss. Stop caring about me. Stop. I don't deserve it and at this point you're wasting both of our energy. Speaking off energy cutting gives me a rush. Pain adrenaline. The feeling of getting away with it. Walking out of the bathroom after doing it and casually saying hi to the man I hate. It's a rush. It thrilling. Fun. But then there's problems. People see. They worry. I don't deserve that. It's a waste. I wouldn't do the same for them. I don't understand. Why care. It's stupid at this point. 30+ cuts yesterday? Not bad ig Might start doing the right arm. Symmetry amirite? Lol

Ty ig

Ehh.. maybe idk

At this point idrc

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