I've had no contact with any of my few friends cus of my ex friend being so dramatic so "for my safety" I cant have any contact with anyone ik cus I've had the police called on me for no reason by them 3 times in 2 weeks and I'm so sick of all of it cus IM the one getting punished even tho I did nothing wrong. this hoe is mad that I was flirting with the guy she liked ( I didn't even ****ing know and he's a freshman (like me) and shes a junior and so he prob thinks I'm ghosting him but cus of her I cant talk to anyone. she told the police I was gonna kms and claimed she was my other ex friend who called, then lied to me, my friend, and the police saying she was just doing it for my own good and her and her mom keeps talking shit about me saying THIS IS MY FAULT that I need to go to the mental hopslatle and more. and she also made a fake message to try to get me in trouble now this shit that I cant talk about rn cus idk shit about the alagation. all the human contact besides the same 3 people that I'm 1/?

related to is here and I'm too ****ing scared to talk to anyone who does reach out before hand cus I cant tell who's a shit person or not cus I'm too ****ing autistic to tell if its jokes or not and I can't read shit here without worrying if someone will attack me or not cus ffs I'm changing schools cus of how many people bullied me at my old school and spreading rumors that I'm a sex offender and I'm wanted n shit. Ffs I'm still missing my shit ex even tho he hurt me over and over again, unintentional physical and idk mental. I just want human contact so bad and I wanna be held like how he used to hold me but he would only do that to be sexual cus apparently it's easy to get a boner while cuddling me even tho I said no sex n shit. I'd rather have that sexual confusion than this hell.

Atp idk if he was using me for sex or if he actually loved me cus rn he is messaging my gma to try n get me to talk to him and he keeps saying "I'm ready to do what u want no river no Seth" but the last time he said that he cheated on me with Seth n I'm just so ****ed up rn cus I miss him and I wanna talk to him but ik it's bad if I do and he's prob ****ing both those people and I even regret giving him my card cus I'm ****ing 15 why did I give myself to such a shit person at a younger age?? I lost it at 14 and I still regret it. He hurt me sm during sexual activities and then mentally hurts me for leaving me, cheating on me, n more shit and idk why I miss him so much I've liked him since 7th grade and he gave me I think trauma or something cus I cant trust anyone anymore but I still miss him. I hate myself sm

Rori if u see this don't tell papa also stop ****ing stalking my shit dude u already got too excited when u found my moisturizer like jumping gup n down asking me what it was like u found gold so PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE ON ONE ****ING APP

I just wanna be held and told it's gonna be ok. I want comfort so badly and that's why I think I was flirting with that guy cus that's literally the only way ik how to be intimate. Like I wanna be held and kissing and cuddled but not in a sexual way so badly. Even my daydreams r all sexual and I hate it sm I just miss being heldsm and to feel love