being seen as and treated like a monster i am familimiar with yknow being queer among other things. but computer,,, . being seen as subhuman in a specific way. it can be ignored left alone talked too however because its jist a computer.

it can be trained on information and patterns and learn to repeat things but it can never pass as human because its not. theres always something off that you can tell. its never auite right. no matter how hard it tries its not human. its just a computer

the autism

desperately trying to get the human experience and process it but i just cant. i will never understand it and i can never have what they have. i cant feel it like they feel it. i just pretend with other computers and we get as close as we can to feeling what humans feel. i pretend with humans and spit out code that tells them i feel the same even if its not true. i want to feel it. i think what i feel is pretty close, id say its equivalent