so basically i have sort of feelings for people and never say anything because im very hapoy stayung friends and i desperately do not want to make it awkward but also god my touch starved ass wants a s/o just to be lovey dovey with and no one else is gonna make the first move so far

idek if i should get in a relationship rn but im just gay and yearning. i want to hang out with my friends and be touchy lovely but my brain says no thats reserved for romantic when really its not so my brain says get relationship!!!! and here i am

i just wanna hang out with people and cuddle thats all. like, my friends that are more like me and like we jam out to music together. god ive never actually gotten to vibe to music together because the one friend i hang out with irl doesnt like my music. i just want to be like the kids who just dance like their im a mosh pit with friends i want that so bad. i want alt friends

the one irl friend i have, they r nice and we have fun but shes not really alt. like she is but isnt. like yknow, she uses 🤣 unironically yknow. shes nice just, not an alt type person. she thinks shes pretty alt.

"alt". i say ut so much but yknow i mean like, scene punk kandi kid clowncore really alternative people the cringey ones the ones who aim to get weird looks when they go in public like god. i want punk asshole friends and we can jump around in their room and shit with loud music and we can spike our hair up together and go to the mall and shit and just borrow a ton of stuff together and just aauugghhgjsugj. i want punk friends i want people like that i just ghhrgrghtg

goth!! punk!!! emo!! like the really emo the really goth really punk ones!!! i want to go out and we both just look so weird i want to go out and we both wrestle at a park and just have a good time and we just laugh the whole time and vibe oh my god. we just walk wherever we sxream to music in their car we just **** around auughghkkgv

i want friends i can go out with and be a stupid teen with. i want friends i can go out with and do embarrassing stuff and be an idiot with. i want to go out and when i come home im tired and sore and just so happy and i just smile the rest of the day

i see so many videos of ppl who do this shjt and like!! i want those kinds of friend groups irl!!!! even if we dont meet up often i just want that ****

i have a little fantasy of like train hopping with friends when im older and just going on a little trip by doing thatlike god it would be so fun to just hang out like that auguhtjajthtktk

if me n da homies dont cuddle and shit then what da hell. except for homies who dont like being touched i respect ur boundaries