You can always talk to me. sometimes what you're thinking just seems so crazy, like you're a monster and no one would if you just went *poof* but the thing is, even though im just one person behind a screen, i can tell you that when people dont tell you they love you, they'll regret it the second you're truly gone. When you love someone, you don't always say it, because you they know how amazing they are. When we're alive it seems we're like robots just getting through the day so we can make it to the next. And, sometimes, it all feels fake. that people are just building you up so they can let you down with the "truth". But, think about something, do you ever do that to other people? Do secretly hate someone but tell them lies? and I know it seem "oh, but im not like them" but you are, we all have a little self doubt and when you are depressed/have anxiety it amplifies. I'm sorry im not very good at comforting, I just want you to know that you'll never be ignored. sometimes people are just too shy to say i

I was working on writing this comment when you replied -And then, once you spiral down, deeper and deeper you're scared you're gonna really kill yourself but you don't want to die you just dont want to live but sometimes there's seemingly nothing you can do, nothing you can say it may just seem easier to well in your self loathing, almost even hoping that no one cares anyway and no, it wont just leave, but there can be a way out I wish i knew the answer, but i still know that i'm okay I'm not amazing, but I am okay. I'm okay because I've lasted this long You're okay because you've lasted this long We all make efforts in our lives, if we've lasted this long we can't be that bad.