I will get my alarm at 10:30 to take my medicine but I’m too lazy and tired to get up and take them

And everytime I wake up after I’ll feel heavy and weightless Idk how to describe it

The prescription I have is venlafaxine

When I talked to my doctor he told me they usually don’t give teenagers the medications bc the withdrawals r so bad

But I usually stay on my schedule One thing is when I forget to take my medicine I take the best naps like sleep that makes you sink in your bed it’s so good

After thinking about it I think venlafaxine does help a lot with my depressive episodes, I still have bad days but it’s not debilitating anymore like it was a year or two ago

As long as I’m on it i have no problems It just also gives you horrible side affects when you don’t take it I guess it’s just the trade off

I take 150 mg

I did take different medications before venla I remember one was Prozac PROZACC SUCKEDD I hated Prozac

I’m kind of happy that I finally figured out what was going on with me and that I had major depressive disorder Some ppl would be like “omg I’d be horrified if I figured out I had that” but it’s like When you been suffering w it for so long clueless finally finding out the problem is motivating Like you weren’t just going crazy

I don’t even think about seriously suicide no more it’s great That’s emo but idc I been dealing w the bs for like 6 years

And like when your in 6ths grade and all you can do is be miserable and confused while everyone else is enjoying there middle school years it’s lonely In highschool everyone’s like desensitized to depression and that it’s normal and everyone has it So it was like why am I having such big ass problems with it why is it so hard for me

Idk ik a lot of you guys are in middle school and highschool yourselfs so maybe this is relatable Idk how relatable massive depressive disorder is but yk maybe

Also everyone asked WHY I was so depressed and everytime I’d be like idk

Let me stop lyin no body knew I was depressed

I didn’t fr know I was depressed

Then I tried to kms and everyone was like why would you do that and I was like I just felt like shit idk

But anyways I’d never do that now

Acc27 haters are rolling around in there beds rn reading this

Everytime I forget to take my meds it’s cus of my haters they vexed me

This char is used to represent toxic obsessive romantic tendencies and harrassment She’s a cute character design wise but I did that purposely because a lot of ppl who are obsessive atleast the ones I know are normal looking ppl who others would have a hard time trying to hate

Anyways the black eyes are supposed to represent a darker motive

Same with the heart pins It’s a type of love that’s harmful and dark