I admit that I messed up. From the very beginning, this is what I remember. Months ago, I would regularly post vents on flipanim. dev and her friends would group up to make fun of my posts. I’m unsure if dev still does this so that is completely my bad if she doesn’t. It happened a few times, so it’s spotty remembering exactly what was said and when, but I do know that angle on dev’s account made a very inappropriate joke to me. “You weren’t molested enough at home” as a joke about why i was acting the way i was in my vents. I didn’t know they shared an account at the time, so I assumed it was just dev because I didn’t pay much attention. This caused alot of misunderstanding on my part. It was my fault for assuming it was dev instead of asking or talking about it. I had no idea what dev was okay with and didn’t look at her posts regularly, so it’s also my fault for assuming she was okay with that joke. At the time I assumed she was encouraging it. I’m sorry for making a false accusation.

There was another time when I was harassed off the site for a while because a friend of mine at the time brought my attention to sexual artwork of me, or artwork of me being raped. It was not high quality, and I’m not sure I saw all the posts so I do not know exactly what was posted. dev and her friends found it funny and went along with the jokes that were being made about me, which is why I, in turn, assumed the joke that angle made was from dev. I thought she would think something like that was funny. Yesterday, I noticed a trend on flipanim where people would post “users they hate.” This wasn’t the best trend to follow, considering this is such a small website, and nobody need’s to know that. If you genuinely have something bad to say about someone, you can talk about it in private. Otherwise, don’t say it at all, let alone publicly. Karizma, who I’m very close with made a post, which I understood to be mostly a joke, on the trend. He put “me, you,” and then dev’s username down in the little corner.

Out of genuine anger for dev’s previous behavior towards me and others, I commented about dev being a hoe that nobody actually likes. I justified this because dev and or her friends had said similar things about me, so it was more of a petty remark. I recognize that this was immature. I shouldn’t have let my emotions get the best of me, and I should not have said that, no matter what they did. I had the idea of making my own post out of more anger, so I did. I made a post “people I hate,” and in very low opacity wrote dev, serenity, and maya’s usernames. I wrote out a paragraph telling them to shut the **** up, that nobody wants to hear them speak, that theyre not cute or funny, and explained things that they had joked about in the past. I had quoted something they told me similarly in the past, “It’s just a post, not that big of a deal, right? >///<“ as a way to make fun of them more. It’s my fault for assuming that they still regularly harass people. One of the things I mentioned was the molestation joke

I never looked too deep into it, I only found the comment to be unbelievable and took it harshly because of my mental state at the time. Again, I’m genuinely sorry for accusing dev of this. I had no idea that she had trauma with sexual assault, and I didn’t know the effect my mention or accusation would have on her at all. This could have given me a hint that she wouldn’t like that joke at all, but I did not know. I’m sorry. I only found out about this after Vii, on his side of things with dev, commented about a post about dev’s actual assault, and misunderstanding it to be a joke. I already messed up by posting this in the first place. I should not have said anything, and it was immature and petty. I figured out that nobody could see the text well in the post I made or even pause on the frames. I for some reason decided to remake the post, making the text more visible because I was so frustrated, and wanted to make it obvious. Dev and maya quickly took note of the post and it was screenshotted.

I did not listen to any of dev’s voice messages, simply out of not trusting the link. I deleted the post shortly after out of fear and regret. It was my fault for posting it in the first place. This wasn’t a good decision either, but out of panic, I felt the need to talk to someone about it. I went to honeypot on flipanim and mentioned it to her on discord. I also went in a flipanim hangout server and talked about the same stuff. I was not seriously looking to have a genuine conversation about it. I “didn’t want things to escalate further”, but if that was true then I should’ve left it alone instead of talking in a public space about it and making it everyone’s business. I proceeded to shit talk dev even more in the server. I found that honeypot was close with dev and she offered to add me to a group chat with her to talk things out after I mentioned being afraid and worried dev would somehow doxx me for posting what I did. I didn’t see the point in doing this, since I was biased already and didn’t like

dev because of the way she treated me before. I didn’t believe she would listen because of what I knew about her character, and I wasn’t willing at the time to have a serious conversation. This was my mistake, since I absolutely had the chance to clear things up. I was being immature, and I just acted like it was something to chat about. I said I wasn’t joining the group since I chickened out, and she added me anyway. I left the group and blocked honeypot out of panic so she couldn’t re-add me. This showed that I was being closed minded and made it obvious I was more likely looking to start something up rather than being fully serious. I understand the frustration this caused, and I’m sorry. She sent dev screenshots of our dms, and someone in the server showed screenshots of what I was saying. This doesn’t sit right with me, considering I told honeypot in the first place that I didn’t need her to reach out to dev. This was a private chat that was leaked without my permission.

But, I will say that if I didn’t want anyone knowing what I was saying, I shouldn’t have said it at all. I was being irresponsible, it was 1 am and I was exhausted. I was not thinking straight about anything I said or my actions. I could have waited to address anything when I was more awake or sensible, but I made the choice not to. That is my fault. At this point, Vii made a post addressing what was going on with him and dev, directed towards her. Maya commented and asked what type of rape jokes dev even made or if he could show proof becaus vii mentioned that. He tried to find an example by looking through dev’s account, and linked a post about dev’s assault which he assumed was a joke about sexual assault at first glance.

This was likely an assumption because of dev’s overall character, so it might seem like something she’d joke about given the previous context. Vii did not know about that and genuinely felt horrible. I want to say that I was not a part of this at all, and did not directly butt into what was going on with vii and dev. These were two seperate things, even if we did talk about it a bit in dm’s. Vii was closer with dev, whereas I was/am not. I did not make a joke out of her sexual assault, I did not even mention it myself. I truly feel bad about what happened to dev, and I’m genuinely sorry about my insensitivity towards the topic, and that dev got triggered because of the trauma being brought back up again. I was not the one who mentioned that post. I felt bad, and wanted to get things over with, so I tried in my tired state to make an “apology” of some sort. It was quite short and didn’t cover alot at all. It came off as dry, not genuine, and nonchalant. I should have waited until my emotions cleared up to m

mention things, but I did not. This is something I will correct in the future. dev’s angry response to my post, insulting me and vii and misunderstanding some things, like it seeming like she was blending the situation with vii and our situation together, it made me genuinely angry. I figured that it didn’t matter anyway, and I deleted my post and talked shit about dev again right after, which defeats the whole purpose of apologizing. I was tired and wanted to shut this down and forget about it until I could think straight. If this was a serious situation that affected dev, then it really isn’t something to just “shut down.” I could have left the post up until further notice, but that isn’t what I did.

I’m sorry for my insensitivity and not being fully genuine in my apology. My frustration with dev and her previous behavior did get the best of me. I genuinely apologize for my actions. I could have acted better or ended it numerous times during this, but I continued and made things worse. I understand why anyone would be upset with me for this, so nobody has to forgive me, I’m trying to explain things more. If dev wants to talk to me further about this privately, my discord is kittytask. Otherwise, I’m going to leave this situation as is. I made a big mistake, and I cannot change how I reacted or behaved, but I can change how I react or behave in the future. Thank you for reading.