so for like years now well since kindergarden i was bullied though out even in 2019 (this year) and i dont know what i should do...in grade 5 i was bullied the hardest there even my best frond (kylara) i have known for years now is being bullied by her new frond mikenzy) which took all of her fronds when she tried to make me not be kylaras frond i said **** off cause i didnt like kenzy from the start but towards the end of the year nedyne (this girl is the one who started this al and should be the one going to hell) pushed me to the limits that i just SNAPPED the next day i brang a knife to school then i was exspelled and had to go to the police i was let off the hook and now i have to go back to the shitty school i hate i now want to die young should i kill myself? or live to be 20 or 50 or 80 or higher?