Partner wants me to come over today, and I've been putting it off for hours... he's going to be upset. I just really don't want to. Last time I saw him he really scared me, and he's been really awful to me for a while. I don't think he's abusive, at least not intentionally, but being in this relationship has destroyed my self esteem and emotional well-being (at least, the little I had...) I don't want to leave my bed. I wish he'd at least come over here so I'm not stuck at his house, or having to be in the car with him while he drives me home angry