face I want to kill myself. I have been thinking about it on and off recently at this point I don't care what happens to me or anyone but my dearest and bestest friend auby the only realest and longest lasting online friendship I've ever had I wouldn't say I'm dependent or like obsessed with her because all of how I feel about her is platonic but everytime I get this thought or idea I think of her, how would she feel, how would she react what would she do after I don't think about anyone else, just her I try not to listen to my urges and instead try to like calm myself down in a normal and safe way if you and your friend cant forgive and makeup for causing each other much hurt and build and grow off of how to NOT **** up then don't call yourselves friends she is the only person I cant get mad at without actually feeling a short hatred, I miss talking all the time :((( it was fun Broo I miss the calls even tho those were some cringe times I miss it