Things are getting tough at school. I feel like I'm having to choose between having friends or be a good person. A good person who will stand up for a person that will probably make me unpopular and lose all my friends. I don't want to lose all my friends. I tried so hard to be perfect and I don't want it wasted. I want to have friends but I don't want to let a person be wasted and feel like shit. I don't want to feel like how I did. I don't want that. Not one bit. I don't want to lose my friends because last year I had no one. No one. No one wanted to be my friend and they all wanted me to basically kill myself. Luckily I was saved. Luckily I had people who cared for me.