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demgelicfox 
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01.07.2020
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demgelicfox[OP]
01.07.2020 02:51
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demgelicfox[OP]
01.07.2020 02:58
Linkhi, vent kinda ig??
im lost. I don't even know i'm lost from what. I'm just lost.
I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know
i
don't
know.
My mom hated my father's guts and my dad talked shit behind her back. They were on and off, on and off. My mother was sleeping in me and my sister's room just 2 days ago for about 2 months. It wasn't the first time. Like i said, it was on and off, just like a switch. And now, just yesterday, they're sleeping together again. No, of course, I'm not surprised. Just- why??? like, this is the 22nd time it happened since i was born, tho I once over heard my mom tell my dad that it's been happening ever since they got married. Oh yeah! Wanna hear the amazing story behind how they met??? My mom was at university and my dad met her. After 1-2 years later, my dad came to her door and asked her to marry him. They weren't dating. They barely knew each other. what. the. ****.
Alright, i'll just drop the shit i was talking
demgelicfox[OP]
01.07.2020 03:03
Link-and move on to the other reasons on why im so lost.
for one, i don't know the difference between the lies and the truth anymore. So many ****ing lies.. i swear to god-
I don't know if im sad, happy, depressed, angry-
angry?? at who? them?? you?? me???
maybe all???
i dont ****ing know!
i hate myself, but at the same time, i'm glad that i'm not like the others
im different.
but i'm also the same.
im not both.
im none.
im everything i wanted, but also n o t h i n g.
i love my sister. But i hate her.
i think im good, but i also think im bad.
i want to die, but want to live too.
i want to give up, but i also want to keep fighting
i-
demgelicfox[OP]
01.07.2020 03:09
Link-like to piss people off, but i also want to help, even tho my mom keeps saying how much of a good for nothing i am.
she doesn't know. he doesn't know. they don't know. you don't know.
but...
i also don't know...
for 2 damn years, i've been trying to find an answer to this:
who are you
who do you think you are
who do you want to be
who did you use to be
i know for one, who i used to be tho:
a dumbass kid that believed that everyone was pure of heart and actually had a good reason behind what they did.
"hah! please!
i'm talking about h u m a n s
only a very few of them are actually and genuinely nice.
and guess what, you're not part of it."
is what i would of told myself if i could go back in time
demgelicfox[OP]
01.07.2020 03:11
Linkalso please ignore this random anim-
im just trying to empty my feelings :D
kk, bye now!
<<333
FoggyStick
01.07.2020 03:34
Link>:0
Ma’am all I have to say is Ignore your parents actions if you, generally wanna be happy and want to know who you, are and who you, want to be stay out of the negativity, like your parents, relationship. Or any thing that makes you, feel blue. If you, are feeling stressed I suggest take your earbuds, p l u g them into your computer / phone / tablet / and listen to dang soothing rain / water noises for hours. If you’re feeling mixed emotions, I suggest Quality time alone like disappear, but not really just like find a spot where no one really goes. ( please don’t go far from your house or leave your house and make sure to carry something with You, in your back yard if you’re even going there to chill alone, I hear to many stories of boys / girls getting kidnapped from there backyard. ) If you’re around your family and you’re feeling down family just makes the sad things get sadder. You’re not really alone in this I feel like this to but this is not my rant this is your rant. I also suggest getting a-