Wizards
The Secret of Shade 5
RUDE - Eternal Youth (jsabfm)
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Happy Second Birthday Flipanim
The Boy in the Boat
Loving pig
Feel so upset rn
18 comments
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:27
LinkGah she'll be back next week..
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:29
LinkMeanwhile he's off doing his own thing and I feel so distant from him- maybe I did something wrong...if I did I obviously don't know what-
I wanna be affectionate with them both but they've never felt so...
Far away before
Like
I can really feel the distance between us and usually it's just
Not there
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:31
LinkNo..its- everyone
I feel so distant from
Everyone
Like
Little comments will piss me off and I just leave even though I don't REALLY want to
But what else do I do? Cuss them out?
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:33
LinkIt feels like everyone either has their walls built up to high for me or straight up doesn't even care I exist..
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:34
LinkAnd ofc everytime I think of what's gonna happen to me when this all comes crashing down
I immediately think to those people who told me to kill myself
I want to
But
I don't want them to win yk?
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:35
LinkWho the hell am I talking to Noone cares
No one ever cares when you try to act all erratic and happy
Yea maybe it worked for a little while
But now people are sick of it..sick of you
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:35
LinkIm so sick of you Jericho
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:36
LinkIm so upset I can't just- say what I want out of fear of getting major backlash from them
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:38
LinkAnytime I try to say something to them I'm like "No I'm not talking abt you, I'd tell u if I was- <3" but that's a lie cuz I'm deathly afraid of losing them AGAIN
When their entire friend group and them were mad at me I was at my absolute lowest
And I am now but that..
That was different..
It felt like- despair
This just feels like self hate and rage
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:40
LinkAnd if I say anything to him I feel like I'll be shut down
Like they'll say "oh it's just my personality!" Or "Why do you care anyway-?" And I don't
I don't want that I just want his attention
And he's busy
And he has a shit ton of other friends but does he really understand how much I love him if hes..well unintentionally making me feel this way?
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:45
LinkAnd Rosee GRRRRR
I don't know why I get so- frustrated- I don't know why maybe something is wrong with me? I shouldn't be so goddamn possessive of someone I don't even ****ing know
But holy shit they've done so much for me it's unbelievable and I can't believe I act that way when they're brought up- I just- it seems like
They have better friends then me
I know they do for a fact
I'm not as connected to them as they are to other people
I'm nowhere near open enough to ask them questions
Im- pathetic around them
Because they well
If it came down to it I think they'd be my only damn friend till death
But something deep inside me says they'll never feel the same
Because I'm a horrible shifty person
I always stress them out or I'm just too clingy to them
I know what we have won't last muh longer
I'm loosing strength and I just- can't
But they- just- ugh
They make me so elated and miserable at the same time it's crazy
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:48
LinkAnd that one guy ughhhh-
It feels like he's just using me for rps- and I probably just paranoid! But still
Everytime we talk "wanna rp?" "Let's rp!!" And it's not fair that I get what I want
But with someone who makes me mildly uncomfortable
Who I find no joy in talking to anymore
I mean I used to find him super funny and like
Inspiring but I can't shake this feeling he's using me
And it's most likely not on hid mind that he is
He probably doesn't even notice
But I still feel that way and everytime I bring it up
three days later it starts again
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:50
LinkI feel like this ticking time bomb!! I'm so ****ing close to just exploding and I know it's gonna end in someone getting hurt or me...well.
Actually successfully kms
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:52
LinkI feel so abandoned and hurt and NO one gives too shits
"Oh I'm here to talk if you need me <3" WHAT ****ING SICK ***** LIES LIKE THAT
LIES AND THEN LAUGHS ABOUT IT WITH THEIR OTHER FRIENDS
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:53
LinkI wish this was some kind of fictional story
Or some fantasy world
Maybe then
Life would be easier on me
Because people like me are destined to die before high-school graduation
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:54
LinkThey'll bound to kill themselves feeling completely isolated
Hurt
Enraged
Sick
Exhausted
Unloved
Abandoned
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
13.08.2022 00:55
LinkI hate this horrible unfair world
How cruel to beat a horse when it's already down