the feeling of dread that fills me when I realize I'm not enough for the people around me and I have to change my personality again because I will never be able to keep the people i want in my life unless i do I know im a bad person I just don't know how to fix it anymore. like im so sick of myself but at the same time i dont even have anything to be sick of [I can't sleep at night because im so boring that I have to create false worlds for myself to live in, just to reason with myself that making my entire "personality" my sexuality, gender, and mental disorder] blink twice if you dont want to be friends aanymore I promise i won't be upset I just have so much going on I dont have energy to ddevot to masking and make the personalities everyone wants