alright ok
by:
SecondCircle 
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10.03.2023
7 comments
SecondCircle[OP]
10.03.2023 06:06
LinkI hate myself from then perhaps more so than you hate me at all
I would kill specifically my 16 yo self if I could
giving dick pics to a 12 yo? am I insane??? I have siblings of similar age!!!! I would beat whoever were to do that to my siblings with a metal bat and I want to beat myself with a metal bat!
such a ****ing creep I don't deserve life
not like I'll take it away myself
too much of a stupid loser coward for that quite obviously
I really can't say sorry enough for what I did and I can't do much else
part of the reason I just wanted to shut up
I also don't think I can ask for forgiveness
my actions are unjustifiable as much as I want to just skirt around the nonexistent logic behind what I did and forget I ever did it
it especially makes no sense to me now
I'm glad you can at least be sorta jokey about it but sometimes I actually wish I would just stumble across a well placed lit stick of TNT or something
SecondCircle[OP]
10.03.2023 06:10
LinkI can't even begin to imagine what goes on in your head because of me
to try to think of any such thing makes me sick to my stomach
as well as to think of what could have happened in an alternate universe
I can't put those feelings to text accurately how disgusted I am with myself
SecondCircle[OP]
10.03.2023 06:13
Linkdoesn't even feel right to ask you to use my pronouns of now
to ask anything of you when I did what I did feels wrong
SecondCircle[OP]
10.03.2023 06:19
Linkyou can call this more victim complex sh it if you want but I just don't know how else to express how terrible i feel about what I did to you
I'm so terribly sorry
as little as that means
I can't forgive myself
I don't expect anyone else to either
SecondCircle[OP]
10.03.2023 06:25
Linkif I had as few brain cells as I did at 16 I'd think my living situation now is karma
now it just seems like a good coincidence
YOU literally ignored what I mentioned NOT to do in what I wanted from an apology???? I said not 2 guilt trip and instead formally acknowledge what you did and provide evidence aswell that you have changed since then
ALSO you aren't the victim in this situation maybe??? Like crazy idea but maybe I was thw one you groomed and maybe I was the one that's the victim in this situation??
I tried to prove I changed since then but I don't know what I could say
I mean I block every babyfur and pedo I see on social media???
is that any sufficient??
I make sure people I talk to on discord are of age and I know of from the explicitly +18 servers I'm in???
idk what more I can say really
still infinitely sorry I did what I did and also sorry I can't write an apology for shit