im bored asl i would get on podiums to see if anybody beefin but last time i did the mods was bein weird

sb was tryna beef wit one of the mods nd another mod tried to call them out sayin it wasnt a beef server….. mind you, beef is in the title of the server i was in….

the server was under the category beef……

then the mod treid to play it off sayin you cant beef wit rhe mods……. its a beef server……. how you gon help maintain a server abt arguin nd beefin wit ppl…… nd not want to beef wit ppl………

thats like me tryna teach sb how to play football knowin damn well idk a damn thing abt football this goes for american football nd football outside rhe states

idk how to play either of them cuz i dont give enough of a **** to learn them😭😭

lowkey podiums needa add sumn else that you can do other than pass the phone nd beef wit ppl mainly on pass the phone tho cuz them pass fhe phone servers be boring asf

i be wantin to see arguments cuz im messy idk

my frontal lobe has not developed can you tell

but fr tho they be boring asf i be wantin ppl to argue ik this gon sound hypocritical since i never get on vc cuz one i would get banned quick two usually when i play podiums my whole fam be home so i cant even tlak like how i want to

also three i stutter a lot y-yeah g-g-guys when i st-stutter in t-t-text i-its bc i-i st-stutter i-in re-r-real l-life..!!!!

i only stutter in text as a joke tho msot of the shit i do i do it as a joke im never serious over heee

ion stutter too much irl tho jus mainly when im thinkin too fasy while im talkin tho or when idk how to get the words i wanna say out

lowkey tho i think i would win a couple of them beefs if i could actually beef wit ppl its not rlly hard to insult someone

esp since all they do is call you fat😭😭

still entertaining tho

i took so long tryna spell that word ngl i think im forgettin how to spell every word in the english dictionary i still dk how to spell kach

kach as in when sb throw sumn to you like a ball or sumn they throw a ball at you nd you kach that shit

in your hands

idk why im startin to forget how to spell words am i rlly that dumb

its 1:30am i finally got to take my bath nd i got more shit to tb even tho its already 22 comments here

aint nb readin ts anyways tho😭😭 atleast ion think nb is

lowkey i feel like im a bad person this aint a vent or nun tho cuz once i say the reasons why i think i am you’ll agree too

my past relationship that lasted like 2 years before i broke up wit dude tbh i feel like i guilt tripped myself into likin tho for most of it

like after the first 2 or 3 months of us “datin” (not rlly cuz it wasnt official yet) nd he broke up wit me (bc he thought i was movin) i lowkey jus stopped likin him but thats bc i was emotionally attached at the time nd was aftually thinkin abt him a lot before he broke up

i remember that summer too it was painful as helllllllllllllll i would never wanna do that shit again that mf ruined my whole summer

but after that summer nd i went back to school nd i didnt even move at all literally stayin in the same place he wanted to get back tg i said sure but like…… by then ian like him that much nd it just declined quickly after that

lowkey wish i didnt get back wit him tho cuz i just wasted my time fr

😭😭😭😭 like deadass

i only realized i rlly didnt like him when i saw a oic of him nd first thing i said was ew

that meant he had to go deadass

i feel like i did terrible as a lover tho cuz i do remember ignorin him a lot cant even remember why i did it tho but i did but thats mainly in the past like prior to like… 5 months ago

after 5 months i was ignorin him cuz i can, what was he gonna do abt it, pull up on me?

okay that sounded a lil rude but j did jus say im a bad person so i mean doesnt matter atp

my muscle just twitched ohhhh ooohhhhhhh

also to add on when i actually moved away literally last years summer nd started goin to a new school nd shit my hg told me that at school all he would tb was me nd im like wow….. cuz i didnt talk abt him at all😭😭😭😭 like damn now i feel more horrible i already knew i was bad but damn THAT bad??😭😭😭

along wit the fact i didnt rlly think abt him either…..

im terrible at this point omg😭

i woiuld delete ts but like….. why delete sumn that yk is true abt yourself

like if yk youre a bad oerson own that shit dont hide it tf

but definitely work to be a better person

lowkeu i might jus gon have to say outta relationships nd shit i may still actually be on the aromantic soectrum or sumn like that

used to be aroace now im jus ace now im questionin if im somewhere on the aro spectrum since i barely ever feel romantic attraction but when i did it was gone quick nd never came back

ea stop sendin me notifs start sendin me money B¡TCH!!!!!!!!

why would they make the upside down exclamation mark smaller nd lower i wanted it to be like an i

ik this is crazy to say but multiple times throughout that relationship i was hopin he had his eyes on sb else so that i wouldnt feel so bad breakin up wit him nd so that i would have a reason to leave him as if me not wantin to be wit him anymore isnt a good enough reason😭😭😭

okay enough exposin myself now cuz if i go on itll be a lot

i needa gts its bout 2am but im wide awake

i should’ve never took thag nap earlier💔