IS IT WEIRD TO LIKE be ftm yk and totally male like online but irl actively try to be more feminine like makeup n shit... bc im not in a place to come out irl since my mom is weird and i go to a hispanic school where they r homophobic af they will call every living thing that breathes a faggot💔 and i want a bf so I want to improve my looks duh but if I try to be more masculine i will be called lesbian and stick out like a sore thumb additionally i don't rly have the looks right now to be more masculine seamlessly... BASICALLY question is does it make me fake trans to not be male presenting irl bc I have FULL intentions of transitioning physically once I turn 18 and have less contact w family

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eek thank u