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25 comments
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:53
Linkwhy does he confuse meee so much its like every time i try to have a serious conversation he just stops responding and dips!!!! and its like. did you really mean anything you said just now . did you justw ant to leave the whole time ? its hurts so bad i dont understand! i dont know if i can trust you and i dont know what is real because this keeps happening
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:54
Linkdid you even mean any of the things you said to me . i shouldnt have spoken up about any of it. why. its so ****ing embarrassing why would i believe you actually meant any of it. thats so embarrassing thats why i dont talk about these things anymore
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:55
Linkthats why im not confident like i used to be in the relationship anymore thats why i get so scared everytime i need to tell you sometjing
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:56
Linkive just waited an hour for your response. every time i think im making progress on not being so attached to you this happens
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:56
Linkplease just dont hurt me anymore and i wont do anytjing
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:56
Linkim sorry for even ****ing trying
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:58
Linkevery ****ing time i get hurt . every time i open up about anything ****ing ever i get hurt. why do i never learn my lesson. why do i always think that next time will be different. why would i even want you to touch me qhen you are always ****ing hu458’g me
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:58
Linkand we were doing so good
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 22:58
Linkwhy am i alwys ****ing up
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:00
Linki lowkey want to attempt but thatd be stupid
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:00
Linkcan everytjing stop hurting me
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:02
Linki know noneof this is true but i need to. i dont. know. it hust hurts when this keeps happeining rhat sometimes it feels like its on purpose . does he like to hurt me ?
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:02
Linki even asked him not to be upset
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:02
Linkmaybe this is all like an experiment and hes just lying to me
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:04
Linkthis is why i should never actually let myself believe for a ****ing second that someone would ever ****ing like me because it always turns out to be shit like this where everybody just ****ing lies to me do you enjoy ****ing using me everybody is just ****ing using me all the time because its ****ing funny do you think its ****ing Funny!!!!!
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:05
Linkeverytime i get like this i just want to Skip my episode and i take so much melatonin and just knock myself out for a whole day but last time i did thag i accidentally missed a final i had to present and i dont want to keep doing this
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:06
Linki really want to trust you but its hard when something like this happens everytime im vulnerable. is it that hard to be patient with me? i jsut want someone to talk to me gently and be nice to be but it never seems to work out the way i want it to. i just want it to work out
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:11
Linksometimes when this happens i feel like shit for thinking i could ever be an equal in a relationship. yeah no im just your ****ing dog and thats all ill ever be! maybe things would be easier if he just treated me like shit all the time so at least i would know my place. i try so hard to sound like the bigger person and be mature and an adult but then im reminded that i amount to nothing compared to other people and what i want and need means nothing and its just embarrassing and idiotic to even try to pretend that i also deserve that
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:11
Linkget a load of ****ing crash out central over here
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:12
Linki should just overdose and die
Schnappie[OP]
03.05.2025 23:14
Linknot even over what the **** is going on but i i feel like im a failure to my parents and theyre expecting me to be doing good and i know im just a mediocre art student who probably wont get a job after college and accomplish anything and my grades arent good and its expensive and i dont know what the **** im doing because my work drive is shit
everyone is living for the first time
you're not given a manual that tells you how to overcome tribulation
people are fallible and thats ok
same goes for whoever you are in a relationship with but what matters most is your reaction and your decisions
dont stay with someone that makes you feel used
no one that truly loves you would allow themselves to inflict pain on you
people are capable of change, but in order to to change you have to make different decisions.if he continually hurts you, he WILL hurt you again. people like patterns. for example, getting up at 7 in the morning everyday and going to school. its just habitual. same as him hurting you. trying to get up at like 4am one day is extremely hard because its different. same goes for ur partner. dont wait for someone else to figure out how to love. focus on yourself, and if that means leaving behind people who are trying to drag you down, then so be it. and thats easier said than done i know
and you're not a failure to anyone. you dont owe anyone anything. dont feel like you have to accomplish something in order to make other people happy
i hope you learn how to love yourself because you deserve love. dont measure your worth by what you produce or how others perceive you
sorry i didnt know anyone would see this . i appreciate you commenting and saying nice things but i really dont want to make it sound like my boyfriend consistently hurts me. hurting eachother in relationships isnt fun, but it happens and its natural. sometimes even necessary to make changes. he loves me! i just am prone to panicking and freaking out. it isnt his fault , its just the way we are .