I feel so ****ing forgotten and abandoned I don't what I should do I have no one I can talk to and something will feel right when I do atm my brother's won't understand and they used to be like who I'd go to so yeah out of resources and I feel so low and discouraged

please like anyone listening just like read this and yeah I don't feel heard I feel invisible I feel alone I feel like things won't get better Im scared to be happy I don't want it to be taken from me and I'll get stuck feeling this I've felt it so much I feel empty but ya know it's okay I show emotions but Im not in the one in the drivers seat Im controlled by some ****ing disorder that I can't get a grip of it feels like Im not in control of my own mind and body there's so much I don't want to say but I say it anyways I can't control that, please know that, It's not my choice it's not I promise

ANYTHING BUT MY FEELINGS NOT MY FEELINGS DON' ASK I WILL MASK AND IT'LL BE WORSE

hey I missed you

**** I love you sweet dreams I m so sorry I wish I would have replied sooner

did you have fun this wekend?

week*end

I don't like um control my feelings?? I have multiple disorders that masking hides and I don't really control the masking unless it's like you know changing my personality so asking about it will always end with me masking over the real feelings

sorry I hhhh

I love you Im sorry