Uh stuff

S//c/d/

Yeah its not really something to be sad about though its barely effecting your life

And for the reason why, its kinda complicated.

Its a lot off stuff and its confusing to explain.

Gtg

Ok im back but ill prob be afk again

But if youre super curious then this explains some of what happened.

Lmt

I basically said that because i literally said something about 7 or 8 months ago to my friend and then she told my principal and then my mom. Mom wont let that go and ever since i havent been allowed to draw furries or make fursuits. Dad used to be on my side and tried to help me with this but recently he just suddenly agreed with mom. Dad used to be one of my only close friends.

I said i wanted to hang myself but at the time i was overreacting. Now its true. Heck, my friend even said she wanted to hang herself before i said that so i wasnt expecting her to react that intensely.

No but something like that happened later on.

And yeah, i do admit this was partly my fault.

Ok. I would be super grateful and give you fanart because well, i have no other payment i could give you.

So that was one of the stories building up to my current mood. This one is way less worse in my opinion, but dad used to show me a bunch of intense gory stuff, occaissionally being real. I was around 2 when he started doing this and he stopped doing it around when i was 7. Im currently 11 if you need comparison. And this made me super violent in kindergarden, which was at the same school im at now, so now some of my classmates avoid me. Theyre scared of me.

And no, no need for a private anim,

When i was 10 i did get obsessed with something and do some really, really stupid stuff but id rather keep that to myself because its not actually making anything worse for me. More just cringy stuff i did when i was younger.

And for the question you asked lmt

Anyways so turns out he showed me the gory pictures because he wanted me to know self defense because yeah theres r@pe in the world and it makes me super mad and want to hurt people And the main things i did in kindergarden that i remember were throwing a chair at someone and biting my teacher to the point that she bled.

So yeah basically now i can see pics of dead ppl and not get disturbed. He pretty much just desensitised me.

Im a girl but my pronouns are they/it

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Might have to go and also i really hope you do ok!

Yep i gtg

So i might go back and wait till late in the night, tie my pants back up, and try again.

Ok im back now and NO ITS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU! YOU MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR ME AND I CARE ABOUT YOU! READ THE FIRST CHAIN, ITS MY PARENTS QND MY FRIEND NOT YOU!!!